• Am I Having Fun Now?

  • Anxiety, Applause and Life's Big Questions, Answered
  • By: Suzi Ruffell
  • Length: 8 hrs and 20 mins

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Am I Having Fun Now?

By: Suzi Ruffell
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Publisher's summary

'A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious.' - Romesh Ranganathan

Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?

Was Miley Cyrus right,
is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)

And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart?


Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.

In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.

From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.

Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect listening for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sarah Pascoe and Tom Allen.

©2025 Suzi Ruffell (P)2025 Macmillan Publishers International Limited
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Critic reviews

'An excellent book, I want to give everyone I know - from my teenage niece to my 60yr old Dad.
So brilliant.' - Masie Adam

'Brilliantly honest, beautifully written and will help so many people' (Josh Widdicombe)

'Honest, hilarious and totally relatable. Simply wonderful, I related so hard to every chapter. I LOVED IT.' (Rosie Jones)

A beautifully sensitive book from one of Britain's best comedians. (Tom Allen)
A really funny and honest book. A work of such importance. (Jon Richardson)

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