
Diary of a Man in Despair
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Bruce Mann
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Hailed as one of the most important works on the Hitler period, this is an "astonishing, compelling, and unnerving" portrait of life in Nazi Germany between 1936 and 1944—from a man who nearly shot Hitler himself (The New Yorker).
Friedrich Reck might seem an unlikely rebel against Nazism. Not just a conservative but a rock-ribbed reactionary, he played the part of a landed gentleman, deplored democracy, and rejected the modern world outright. To Reck, the Nazis were ruthless revolutionaries in Gothic drag, and helpless as he was to counter the spell they had cast on the German people, he felt compelled to record the corruptions of their rule.
The result is less a diary than a sequence of stark and astonishing snapshots of life in Germany between 1936 and 1944. We see the Nazis at the peak of power, and the murderous panic with which they respond to approaching defeat; their travesty of traditional folkways in the name of the Volk; and the author's own missed opportunity to shoot Hitler. This riveting book is not only, as Hannah Arendt proclaimed it, "one of the most important documents of the Hitler period," but a moving testament of a decent man struggling to do the right thing in a depraved world.
©1996 Henry Goverts Verlag GmbH, Stuttgart; Translation copyright 2000 by Paul Rubens; Afterword copyright 2013 by Richard J. Evans (P)2025 Tantor MediaPeople who viewed this also viewed...
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