For fans of The Love of My Afterlife and A Love Song for Ricki Wilde, Natalie Messier’s debut follows a woman who gets a second chance to relive a formative time in her adult life—with the opportunity to win back “the one that got away.”

Joey Vasquez’s life is the definition of good on paper. At thirty-three, she’s a Los Angeles lawyer on the cusp of making partner, she owns real estate, and she almost keeps pace with her doctor sister in her parents’ eyes. When she reluctantly arrives at the very couple-y dinner party hosted by Elijah Aarons, the best friend she’s secretly pined after for fifteen years, she’s dismayed to find that the last person on earth she’d ever want to see again is also there: Alex Aquino. Your basic rich Silicon Beach bro asshole. And the married man Joey once had an affair with. The night couldn’t possibly get worse—and then she dies.

When Joey is given a second chance at life, she finds herself eighteen again, the year she first met both Elijah and Alex. Armed with memories from her first life, Joey is certain she’s come back to finally convince Elijah to see her as more than just a friend, but he doesn’t text. He doesn’t call. He’s weirded out when she transfers into his class—is she stalking him? Then there’s Alex, who’s different than Joey remembers: Charming. Sweet. Considerate. He pursues her, and she can’t deny the chemistry between them, but is knowing a person becomes something you hate in the future a reason to stop loving them in the present?