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Narrated by:
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Esh Alladi
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Gurkiran Kaur
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By:
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Anjana Appachana
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Mallika is a painfully shy young woman growing up in the heart of a close-knit, sometimes stifling, New Delhi colony. Though she is surrounded by love, her life is complicated by secrets that she, her mother and her aunt work hard to keep.
After suffering a trauma aged 19, Mallika loses three days of her memory and slowly spirals into a deep depression. She must find a way out of this abyss, back to herself and those she cares about. But she must also hide her mental illness from her community.
In a narrative that unfolds elliptically from the perspectives of Mallika and the seven people closest to her, the astonishing story of these characters' lives emerges. As each gives voice to contending with their own struggles, secrets and silences shatter.
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