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Finding My Voice

A True Story About Domestic Violence in Thailand & Expat Community Silencing

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Finding My Voice

By: Juanelle Louise Holl
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A TRUE STORY

Follow the author's heart-wrenching story about her domestic violence experiences with her Thai ex-partner and the secondary trauma of not being believed, being pressured to stay silent by some of her expat community, and being gaslit into questioning her reality. It's about a mother fighting to protect herself and her two babies from psychological abuse during the COVID pandemic lockdown on a remote island in Thailand. In this raw memoir, Juanelle courageously breaks years of enforced silence to share her journey from survivor to advocate.

"Did it really happen?" "Was I being dramatic?" For years, she dealt with intrusive thoughts and feelings of confusion and betrayal. Silence wasn't protecting anyone—it was eroding her authenticity. Writing became her lifeline, forcing her to trust her perceptions again.

Psychological abuse, such as threats, intimidation and manipulation, has been legally classed as domestic violence in Western countries since the 1980s, with Thailand following suit in 2007. Despite this widespread legal recognition, many people still don't realise that psychological abuse is domestic violence and can result in legal proceedings. The taboo nature of this subject perpetuates misinformation within uninformed communities. When communities silence victims to avoid 'drama, ' they enable abusers who learn that there are no social consequences for psychological abuse. Victims are re-victimised and prevented from accessing appropriate help.

Finding My Voice is more than a survival story—it's a roadmap for recognising the signs of psychological abuse, understanding your legal rights, and proving that speaking your truth is the path to authentic healing.

From Bangkok to remote islands, expat women face unique vulnerabilities. Juanelle's story exposes the hidden patterns that put women at risk and reveals how knowledge and self-advocacy can save lives.

Because ultimately, your safety and healing matter more than anyone else's comfort.

©2025 Juanelle Louise Holl (P)2025 Juanelle Louise Holl
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It's a very interesting story, sometimes it has hard situations as it's a true story based in real life, but it teaches a lot of lessons while being engaging and getting you into the story

engaging!

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This book cracked something open in me. This is a mirror for anyone who’s ever been silenced or doubted their own truth. It left me shaken and inspired. I didn’t expect to cry, but I did.

Made me cry

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This is a powerful story that helps us appreciate the many stakeholders and ripple effects of what can make domestic violence the perfect storm that can happen no matter your training or background and the issues that can persist long after it happens. It's challenging for many to listen to things that may be inconvenient or rather unconfortable but I love how this story is uncovering it all. It's important for everyone to listen and learn the ways that the perfect storms can unravel, how to support and acknowledge these occurrences while preventing them at least from being taken so far and from happening in the first place. Thank you for sharing and shedding light on such an important issue.

humbling yet incredibly inspiring

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If you want to be inspired and learn how truly resilient people can be. If you’re in a bad relationship right now this is a good book to pick up.

Very impactful story

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This book is raw, honest, and so important. Juanelle's story shows how psychological abuse can be just as damaging as physical violence, and how hard it is when your community doesn't believe you. I admire her courage in sharing such painful experiences and breaking the silence. Her journey from confusion and fear to clarity and self-advocacy is inspiring.

This memoir is not only moving but also educational. It sheds light on the realities of domestic abuse and why speaking out matters. Highly recommend it to anyone who wants to understand the hidden side of abuse and the strength it takes to heal.

Powerful and brave memoir

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"Finding My Voice" is an incredibly powerful and raw memoir that left a profound impact on me. I found most compelling was the author's immense courage in sharing her deeply personal and heart-wrenching experiences with domestic violence, especially the often-overlooked secondary trauma of community silencing and gaslighting. It's a must-read for those who believe that safety and healing should always take precedence over societal comfort.

A Courageous and Essential Read

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Her strength isn’t loud, but it’s obvious. The way she walked through her past showed that she’d done a lot of processing. You don’t have to relate to everything she says to respect it. I finished it in one go and sat quietly for a while after. It hit me in a quiet, deep way.

Strong in her own way

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This audiobook just completely ripped my heart open with its raw honesty and profound courage. For anyone who has ever walked through the isolating nightmare of psychological abuse, feeling unheard and gaslit, this story is a powerful mirror and an aching validation of your truth. It's an incredibly vital and emotionally charged listen that fearlessly illuminates the journey from profound silence to defiant healing, leaving an indelible mark on your soul.

A Brave Voice

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This was a very touching and heartfelt story about survival. What makes this so impactful is the honest true about how a woman survives Domestic Violence and her experience with how her friends and even how the town responded. This is truly a reflection on survival how the narrator guides you on this path and provides helpful tips on how she was able to get her life back.

Finding Perseverance Through Trauma

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Juanelle bravely recounts her harrowing experiences with domestic violence on a remote island in Thailand very community that should have protected her. As a reader, I felt her pain Highly recommended for survivors, advocates, and anyone who wants to better understand

That Gives Voice to the Silenced

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