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Joshua Criss
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Convinced he has nothing left to live for, 54-year-old Steve Kranowicz treks into the New Hampshire woods with a handgun and bottle of vodka. After pulling the trigger, he’s visited by an omniscient representative of God, a Crow who offers Steve a new life in the time and conditions of his choosing. That choice is easy: going back to 1985 so he can try again with his high-school sweetheart Darcee French, a relationship that failed due to his youthful insecurities.
Steve returns as a 16-year-old in 1985 with everything he requested: the house next-door to the Frenches, all to himself; the car of his dreams; millions in cash; even the extra height he always wanted. But his teenage body retains a 54-year old’s cynical weariness, and his new life throws constant curves. Does Steve now have the resources and wisdom to be happy, or is it as futile as before? Can you ever really go home again, even when you’re delivered to its doorstep?
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I Abandon This Life is polished, emotionally layered, and full of thought-provoking questions about life, regret, and the paths we choose.
The premise is intriguing: What would you do if you could live your life over again? But the book doesn’t just dwell in that idea, it pushes it further, asking why we end up where we are and what truly matters when we try to set things right.
I liked that it didn’t explain everything. Some of the ambiguity left room to reflect and fill in the gaps, which made it stick with me longer. The moral at the heart of the book, and Steve’s journey through each version of his life gives the story real depth.
If you enjoy character-driven fiction with a metaphysical twist and a human core, this one is worth your time. Josh is hitting his stride, and I’m glad to be along for the ride.
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