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Casey Withoos
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Natasha Lester
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Camille is a nurse specialising in supporting families through the difficult decision to donate the organs of their dying loved ones. Camille's mother is a gifted but uncompromising transplant surgeon determined to make it in a man's world until her own life falls apart. And Camille herself is a mother to Addie–five years old, critically ill and in desperate need of the very organs her mother and grandmother work with.
‘Well written and structured, this moody read will leave you thinking.' Canberra Times
‘Through a cast of memorable characters, If I Should Lose You pitches art against life, and in the process exposes life in all its frailties. Here is a story that resonates long after reading.' Andrea Goldsmith
‘I was captivated by this honest, beautiful story that fuses love and art with the most profound challenges of motherhood. Written with extraordinary emotional wisdom and intelligence.' Liz Byrski
‘a profound and confronting novel worth reading.' Weekend Courier
‘… a delicate, beautiful and captivating story.' Subiaco Post
‘It is a subtle and sensitive work that eloquently tackles loss, love and life.' West Australian
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