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Jerry L. Wheeler
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Nathan Burgoine
About this listen
With one diagnosis, editor James Daniels learns that he's literally running out of time. Looking at his life, he sees one regret: Andy, the one that got away. Andy was the first man that James ever loved, but Andy has been gone for years, and might not want to be found.
But as his cancer progresses and James starts to lose his grip on time and memory, it might just be that time and memory are losing their grip on James, too.
It's the biggest and most important re-write of his life. Restoring love from nothing but memory might be possible, if the past isn't too far gone to fix.
©2014, 2016 Nathan Burgoine (P)2016 Lethe PressListeners also enjoyed...
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- ChipmunkGinger
- 06-16-23
So moving
Very moving story that makes you think about time and life and your loved ones in a new light.
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- Jovan
- 06-05-22
Excellent
Audio: 3.75⭐️
Lovely, heartbreaking and poignantly real even in its unreality. From the first few sentences, this short gem latched on to my heartstrings and my dark humor bone and had me laughing and tearing up in equal measure. To me, one of the marks of a truly well-written piece with an unreliable narrator and variable timeline is that by the end, you don’t really care about what’s “real” or “true”. All the events, memories etc. are true and false, happened but didn’t - they are the literary equivalent of superposition.
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- L. Carroll
- 12-21-16
Everything happens for a reason
*waits to be pushed out a window*
I've enjoyed Nathan Burgoine's work for some time, so when I saw he had a story on Audible, I purchased it immediately. I was not disappointed.
I was sure this story would make me ugly cry, it is titled "In Memoriam" after all, but I managed to hold it together. I shouldn't say more than that as I don't want to spoil the story.
My only quibble was with the reader. He gave an excellent performance but the female voices sounded too similar to me.
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- Stephen Kenson
- 04-17-24
Who Hasn't Wished to Set Things Right?
"In Memoriam" is, simply put, a wonderful and powerful story about a gay man who learns he's dying, has some regrets about how things have gone and ... well. Just listen to it. It's wonderfully written, wonderfully read and just wonderful. If you're wondering about its effect, just wonder at how many times I can use a variation of "wonderful" in this review—and I'm someone who works with words for a living.
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