I’m Trevor Brown and I’m friends with Sunny Morning. Chad was my friend first, and when he became friends with Sunny, so did I. I’m really grateful for that. Becoming friends with Sunny turned out to be one of the best things to ever happen to me.
Why, you ask? Well that’s a long story. It all boils down to my job, the job I wouldn’t have been able to get without my friendship with Sunny Morning. I owe Sunny so much for helping me get hired by his father. You see, Sunny was supposed to inherit the position I have.
But it’s fishing, on a boat, in the ocean. Sunny has extreme motion sickness, it just wasn’t ever going to happen for him. He was never going to be able to take his rightful place in the family business. Sunny’s brother, Stormy, well he could have done the job. But he refused, there was no way he was going to fish for a living. Not happening, ever.
So I got the job, and I couldn’t be more grateful for it. I’m not a huge fan of fishing, so why am I so grateful? Well that’s because I don’t have to talk to anyone in this job. I don’t have to see anyone other than the few other guys on the boat with me. I’m comfortable with the small amount of communication required.
Why is that important? Well that’s the long story part. I’ve always been known as the painfully shy kid. To the point where I couldn’t speak in some situations. I would freeze up and completely panic. I never really got over it, I’m still absurdly shy and panic in certain situations where speaking is required. It’s not quite as bad as it was as a kid, but I still really struggle with it.
As you can probably guess, I struggle with the whole concept of dating. As in, I’ve never been able to get up the nerve to do any at all. Yup, the painfully shy guy doesn’t date. Go figure, that’s not super shocking. I’ve interacted with women on occasion, I don’t completely freeze anymore like I did when I was younger. But interacting with someone and asking them out are very different things.
So yeah, asking women out is pretty much impossible for me. I wouldn’t know what to do with her even if by some miracle I managed to get the words out and she accepted. Chad said the right one will appreciate my shyness, but first she’s going to have to get to know me. Since that’s the part I can’t manage I don’t know how it’s ever going to happen.
But I keep praying in hopes that God can manage to make it happen. He can do impossible things, nothing is too much for him. He’s the only one that can make it happen so I’m not giving up on him. I’m not going to stop asking and I’m not going to stop believing that he’ll eventually answer.
I honestly don’t care who he gives me, I’ll take anyone he sends me. Anyone is better than no one. I don’t care what she looks like, what she does for a living, what ailments she has, none of that matters. Just as long as she’s kind and can love me, I’m good. I’ll love her with everything in me and never let her go. He just needs to put her right in my path, and a neon sign would be incredibly helpful too…