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The First Time She Drowned

By: Kerry Kletter
Narrated by: Jorjeana Marie
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The beautiful struggle of a girl desperate for the one relationship that has caused her the most pain.

Cassie O'Malley has spent the past two and a half years in a mental institution - dumped there by her mother, against her will. Now, at 18, Cassie emancipates herself, determined to start over. She attends college, forms new friendships, and even attempts to start fresh with her mother. But before long, their unhealthy relationship threatens to pull Cassie under once again. As Cassie struggles to reclaim her life, childhood memories persist and confuse, and Cassie must consider whose version of history is real, and more important, whose life she must save.

A bold, literary story about the fragile complexities of mothers and daughters and learning to love oneself, The First Time She Drowned reminds us that we must dive deep into our pasts if we are ever to move forward.

©2016 Kerry Kletter (P)2016 Listening Library Bullying & Abuse Depression Depression & Mental Health Difficult Situations Family Family & Relationships Literature & Fiction Sexual Abuse Heartfelt Mental Health

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"Kerry Kletter’s The First Time She Drowned is the kind of book I love best - a lovely and haunting keep-you-up-all-night heart-wrencher that is both beautiful and raw, painful and uplifting. It’s utterly amazing. An incredible read. Be warned though - you will want to read Cassie’s story, start to finish, in one sitting. And then you will want to race to put it in the hands (and hearts) of everyone you know and love." (Jennifer Niven, New York Times best-selling author of All the Bright Places)

"Kletter’s exploration of a dysfunctional family through the eyes of a daughter is raw with emotion…a sophisticated read…lyrical.” (School Library Journal)

"[An] excellent debut novel....heart-wrenching....Readers who enjoy the suspense of unreliable narrators, as in Adele Griffin’s Loud Awake and Lost or Stephanie Kuehn’s Complicit, will appreciate this one." (Booklist, starred review)
Beautiful Storytelling • Compelling Characters • Exceptional Voice Versatility • Emotional Depth • Relatable Experiences
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I could identify with the main character immediately. A truly successful must read book. Triu

Captivating and poignant

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This is an odd book. It's extremely depressing. The narrator of the book is a female- and she goes back and forth from her childhood to her early years as an adult. Her mother was abused by her grandmother, and then in turn, she was extremely emotionally abused by her mother. She is placed in an 'insane asylum' for years, and when she gets out she has to learn to live among peers/friends and people in general again.

She also has to come to grips with the fact that the way she was treated wasn't her fault. Her mother was deeply mentally ill- but of course as a child you wouldn't know this.

The story is solid and the characters are fairly strong. The book is extremely depressing though- but it does stick to a very important theme in life- you should stick with people who make you feel good about yourself, not those who make you feel horribly.

I felt that there could have been so much more added to this novel to make it a bit more interesting. It's a very good attempt at a book about mental illness and it's affects, but something falls short of this being a 4 star book. I am glad I read it, and I would recommend this book to anyone who doesn't mind depressing stories.

-Wendi

Depression Surfaces and Drowns At the Same Time

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I truly enjoyed this heartbreaking novel. The story was sad but also inspiring. I was rooting for Cass the whole time!

My only negative was that the narrator sounded like she had a really stuffy nose in some places. It was distracting.

Great story

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Save yourself the trouble of years of trying to figure out your relationship with your self absorbed Mother. All of the answers are here in this wonderful fiction novel. Excellent reader as well. Read this and be free! It was never you fault ❤️

A must read for girl's and women born to narcicistic Mothers

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Good book, well written but not exciting or extremely interesting. It’s a simple story about a girl all of us have probably met or know. Not particularly deep or difficult to follow.

Good Book not exciting

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I listen to my audiobooks when I exercise each day. As much as I dislike exercising I found I could not wait to get out and walk so I could hear what was next. There was so much to love about this book. The characters, the twists and turns, imagining the different endings that could turn out. I highly recommend it

I couldn't wait to walk

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Thus book is so good. Made me sad and angry so many times because it could be a story of so many people's lives!

Sad and real

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This book was so good! had me completly swept away with the story. Perfectly written.

Great Book. Even Better Narrator!

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It was frustrating to listen to almost an entire book with the knowledge of the main character's struggle while she is oblivious to it. While it may reflect what happens in real life, as a reader I eventually stopped caring if she ever figured it out, thus it took me months to finish listening to this as I routinely found something else to listen to. Sheer determination.
The reader did a great job although I sense she had a cold for the 2nd half.

Frustrating

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Would you say that listening to this book was time well-spent? Why or why not?

Yes, but it was frustrating how much of it was sad and kind of depressing. About 9 1/2 hours of the 10 were depressing with just a few positive things happening during that time. I think the it was well-written and a subject that needs to be talked and written about more, but it was pretty heavy at times.

What was your reaction to the ending? (No spoilers please!)

Not surprising but glad it ended the way it did.

Have you listened to any of Jorjeana Marie’s other performances before? How does this one compare?

No.

Do you think The First Time She Drowned needs a follow-up book? Why or why not?

It doesn't need it but I think it might be good because so may conflicts have been resolved, and others could be delved into.

Good story but pretty depressing

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