
The Truth at the Heart of the Lie
How the Catholic Church Lost its Soul
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James Carroll
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“Courageous and inspiring.” (Karen Armstrong, author of The Case for God)
“James Carroll takes us to the heart of one of the great crises of our times.” (Stephen Greenblatt, author of The Swerve)
An eloquent memoir by a former priest and National Book Award-winning writer who traces the roots of the Catholic sexual abuse scandal back to the power structure of the Church itself, as he explores his own crisis of faith and journey to renewal.
Named One of the Best Books of the Year by Publishers Weekly
James Carroll weaves together the story of his quest to understand his personal beliefs and his relationship to the Catholic Church with the history of the Church itself. From his first awakening of faith as a boy to his gradual disillusionment as a Catholic, Carroll offers a razor-sharp examination both of himself and of how the Church became an institution that places power and dominance over people through an all-male clergy.
Carroll argues that a male-supremacist clericalism is both the root cause and the ongoing enabler of the sexual abuse crisis. The power structure of clericalism poses an existential threat to the Church and compromises the ability of even a progressive pope like Pope Francis to advance change in an institution accountable only to itself. Carroll traces this dilemma back to the Roman Empire and the Middle Ages, when Scripture, Jesus Christ, and his teachings were reinterpreted as the Church became an empire. In a deeply personal re-examination of self, Carroll grapples with his own feelings of being chosen, his experiences as a priest, and the moments of doubt that made him leave the priesthood and embark on a long personal journey toward renewal - including his tenure as an op-ed columnist at The Boston Globe writing about sexual abuse in the Church.
Ultimately, Carroll calls on the Church and all reform-minded Catholics to revive the culture from within by embracing anti-clerical, anti-misogynist resistance and staying grounded in the spirit of love that is the essential truth at the heart of Christian belief and Christian life.
©2021 James Carroll (P)2021 Random House AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
“James Carroll’s The Truth at the Heart of the Lie is at once a passionate love letter to the enduring beauty of the Catholic faith and a passionate indictment of the clericalism of the Catholic Church. This moving and revelatory book, written from deep personal experience, takes us to the heart of one of the great institutional and existential crises of our times.” (Stephen Greenblatt, Pulitzer Prize-winning author of The Swerve and Will in the World)
“James Carroll has written a courageous and inspiring account of his original commitment to and his subsequent disillusion with the Catholic Church. The accession of Pope Francis five years ago gave many people - of many different faiths - hope for the future. But even Francis has tragically failed to deal with the problems arising from enforced clerical celibacy that have led to the scandalous sexual abuse of women and children in a male supremacist church that flies in the face of the Gospels. Our only hope is to have the courage to imagine a future that returns to the spirit of equity, love, and compassion that not only is fundamental to the true teaching of the Catholic Church but also lies at the heart of all the great world religions.” (Karen Armstrong, New York Times best-selling author The Case for God)
“In this amazing account of the author’s lifelong adventure of faith, full of candor and pain about one man’s encounter with the peculiar blessings and severe limitations of Catholic Christianity, the reader will come to know a man of such intellectual breadth and astonishing self-honesty as one almost never encounters in contemporary literature.” (Thomas Cahill, author of How the Irish Saved Civilization)
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- stella l.
- 10-05-22
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Book is revelatory and instructional at the same time. Incomparable personal story. Performance leaves a lot to be desired. I had to put reading speed at 1.5 and that was still slow. However the material was well worth it
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- Sarah Eby
- 02-03-25
A few sentences here and there at the beginning about his faith journey that I can relate to.
It was really dry at times but I could follow along as having worked for the church for years myself.
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- T. R.
- 07-04-23
Sobering
The book by James Carroll needed to be written. Much of what he spoke about I was already aware of ,yet as he put all the pieces together, along with his personal connection and faith, the story became more centered and real. this book lists a lot of problems with the church, but certainly not all of them. Many problems have occurred in the past 2000 years which have yet to be addressed. As a practicing Catholic, I see myself as wanting to move away from the ecclesiastical church. I find very distasteful the excessive amount of money and publicity spent on the Eucharistic revival in the church. It appears the church is trying to deflect away from its crimes and problems, and to remind people that it has the power, the only ones with power, to transubstantiate the Eucharist. I have worked with many priests, I find the clericalism is so entrenched that you cannot see a way out. The church never learned anything about the abuse crisis. Problems continue to manifest in another form. The church is abusing its adults by spoon feeding them instead of helping them to seek the truth for themselves. The church continually feeds people what they want them to believe instead of encouraging them to argue these points. It is time we got rid of, the Roman idea that a Pontiff is necessary for this church. Patriarchs, oversee smaller groups, which may allow for differences. We lost the sense that Jesus was Jewish. Being Jewish means you had to argue the faith from whatever truth you are trying to live. There are no doctrines and dogmas that are necessarily not touchable, yet in our faith, we cannot discuss things like women’s ordination without the weight of the church coming against us. All of the priests out there that are having affairs with adults has not even been discussed. I have seen priest break up homes, and families for their sexual gratification. The bishops hide this and move them. It’s time to get rid of all clericalism and begin the house church movement. Thank you James Carol, it gave me my push to write about what needs to be spoken about and removed from the shadows.
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- Tim Styer
- 08-25-24
A historical perspective
The author gives a good historical perspective on how the policy of clericalism has led to the heinous crimes ever of sexual molestation of.children in the catholic church.
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- Gail Gonzalez
- 09-26-21
A Gift
The writing of James Carroll has changed my life. As a 73 year old Catholic, I have found answers to the quest I have pursued through my lifelong faith journey. As a result, I have experienced a simpler, yet more profound, presence of Jesus Christ. Like Carroll, I remain Catholic…for that is who I am…but his words have clarified my vision and opened the window to God’s peace and love.
Thank you James Carroll for your research as well as insight into your personal faith journey. Your work is a gift.
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- Peachy
- 10-26-21
The personal story is far from relatable and not inspiring
I wholeheartedly agree with the author’s position on clericalism. But, much of the book is the author’s life story told through the prism of a persistent and strong dread of nuclear annihilation. Those who lived through the same time as the author and many who are younger will easily recognize that the author significantly overstates the actual nuclear fear of that time...he does it to the point that it burdens the story. I found myself saying, “enough already”.
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