Dejected. Torn down. Wrecked.

With my mask firmly in place for anyone on the outside looking in, I go through my life hiding the ugly truth.

Hiding my pain. Never fully being me. Steven, my husband, won’t allow for flaws or mistakes. When our son Zander came into the world things were better. For a while. Then the verbal abuse started up again. His physical abuse quickly followed. That’s when I decided to get out. But doing so with a child takes time and planning.

My friends both old and new, help me find the courage to find my voice and stand up for myself and my son. I just don’t know if I can rebuild myself from the shambles that I’ve become.

I hope I can find a way out from under the anguish my husband has inflicted on me so my son and I can live our best life and move on. Will that include the detective who’s helping me, his twin, and their lifelong friend? I guess I’ll find out.

CONTENT WARNING: This book contains graphic and violent scenes, including rape, physical violence, emotional violence, and psychological turmoil. Please don't take this warning lightly. The contents are brutal at times. I don't want anyone to be harmed from the words I've written.
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