In this episode Jennifer Weiss shares her story and life's journey of searching for her identity and purpose. Not only does she reveal how she found it, but also how you can too.Jennifer Weiss is the founder of The Creative Christian, a ministry that brings biblical truth to the entertainment industry while coaching and mentoring artist in their craft to do the same. You can learn more about The Christian Creative at:https://www.creativechristian.online/Create your podcast today! #madeonzencastrhttps://zencastr.com/?via=thefatherhoodchallengeTranscript - A Daughter Finds Identity and Purpose---You're going to hear a testimony of a woman who spent her whole life searching for her identity and purpose.How she found it and how you can too, and she'll join us in just a moment so don't go anywhere.Welcome to the Fatherhood Challenge, a movement to awaken and inspire fathers everywhere, to take great pride in their role.And a challenge society to understand how important fathers are to the stability and culture of their family's environment.Now here's your host, Jonathan Guerrero.Greetings everyone. Thank you so much for joining me. Jenny Weiss also joins me and she's ready to share her story with us.Jenny, thank you so much for being on the Fatherhood Challenge.Thanks for having me, Jonathan.Jenny, I know this is going to take some time to share your story with us, so I want to leave as much time as possible for that.So let's get started from the very beginning of how you lost and found your identity.I was really young when my parents divorced. I was three years old.And I ended up going to live with my mom.So I had two older sisters and we went to live with my mom.And yeah, that was pretty difficult.There were a lot of traumatic things that happened in my childhood, whether it was my parent using drugs, abuse, different things like that.And so I grew up with a pretty skewed view of the world, I would say.You know, thinking some things were okay or normal, that just should never happen, right?And I was about 12 the first time that I went to a church and responded to an alter call.And I remember like there was this period where my mom was like bringing us to church.I don't know why, but well, I do know why, you know, spoiler alert.That's why I'm in Jesus.And I remember looking at her when they're doing the alter call and I just said like,you know, what should I do? Should I go down there?My mom's like, well, do you want to go to hell?And I was like, that's a very good question, mom.No, I do not.So I went down there and gave my heart to Jesus, but I didn't really give him my life.I didn't really know what that meant.And I knew that I wanted him to save me.I knew that I didn't want to go to hell.I didn't know who I was.I didn't know who he was.And so, you know, there were certain fundamental things I knew.Like I could pray.I could ask the Lord to save me, help me because there are a lot of situations in my lifewhere I needed him to do that.And he did.I look back now.I'm 32 years old. This is 20 years ago.And I can confidently say, Jesus had my back.He watched out for me.His hand was on my life and he protected me, right?And there were lots of things that I did to put myself in bad situations where I wouldneed his help.There's lots of things that just happen because we live in a fallen world, right?The rain falls on the chest and the unjust alike.And so fast forward 10 years, I've lived a lot of life.I have sinned a lot.You know?I didn't know who I was.So I did things to try to find that out.I drank.I did drugs.I had premarital sex.I did all those things to try to fill this void on the inside of me that only the Lordcould fill.And I didn't know that, right?Because the Bible says, "Eternity is written on the heart of man."And I think somewhere deep down, I really did have the conviction of the Holy Spirit.So I want to make sure I communicate this.I was miserable in my sin.I wasn't happy.I wasn't having a good time out there partying.It just seemed like everything that I did added to the misery in my life.And I thought this would make me happy.And then it turns out it's empty, meaningless, void of anything, right?It lead me further into depression, further into darkness.And there were times where I remember being tormented by demons where I would see demonicvisions.And I just remembered from my childhood, my sister telling me, "Hey, there's one thing youcan do when you're scared."And it's say, "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ."So I'd be laying there, paralyzed in the bed, seeing a demon.I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ.And it's so wild to me.That's what I knew.But it's funny how God gives you what you need in seasons, you know, for what you canhandle where you're at.And so anyway, so I ended up doing all kinds of crazy things.I joined the Navy.I was a firefighter.And I was really searching for purpose and searching for like this.I want to do something good.And I was doing tons of things that ...
