There are times in life that I fought for this feeling, not even knowing what it was. Through sickness and health, til death do us part, I was loyal to the vows I took towards this love, one veiled, unknown, miraculous, yet absolutely mesmerizing. A bride in size 7 shoes, a groom with hands that move, shape, and build. In my masculine energy I look at the feminine, and I see my shadowed love I have waited so long to show her face.

I am showing my face, my expression, my soul, as I wade through my recent findings, my Jugendliche, my detachment, my adoration, my gratuity, my recognition, and my story of faith in myself as a soul that listens to what life brings her and sees the gift, regardless of the attachments. This is the union of my soul, my personal celebration of being true to love, and finally being able to understand what it was that I did it all for.

I was not meant to suffer; I was meant to see what my spirit can do when it is brought circumstances to fail. It is undeniable, that I can rely on myself, that I BELIEVE in myself, so radically that in any situation, I am capable of overcoming negativity MY WAY. That I have seen my spirit grow so quickly because I believe that there are no mistakes, and an attempt at catastrophe has shown me that I have the power to catalyze what I am given into inner power.

Resilience of soul is a silent (h), a gift of heart we are meant to strengthen and evolve with, not against. My inner power is one I was given just the right circumstances and life to see, and life that can grow without light is not without but composed OF what it was denied. The power of choosing to grow stronger in the dark rather than resent the difficulty of what I was planted below, to use my circumstances to motivate me, inspire me, and practice my inner power to a point it is undeniable.

To a point my roots can break through rock.

I'm so grateful I listened to my heart, and it's a funny thing. I didn't know what it was I was doing, yet it didn't matter. The feeling of being true to my soul and my intuition was stronger in me than anything else, and I am loyal to what bears fruit, even if it takes time.

Even funnier, it was never another face I was meant to chase in this union I could feel. I understand now it is for a self-love that recognizes the beauty in both sides of me, masculine AND feminine. A pair that aligns for growth, the love of evolution, in both of my dualities, as the complimentary sides of myself that now want to work together, than apart.

Through the fogginess of an ending, lies a beginning. Til death do us part, and a death indeed. The death of division, a union of oneness within my imperfection and love for it, I come back ready to see what's next on my journey.

Let's see what this chapter brings :)

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