
Dealer to Healer
A Modern Tale of A F--cked Up Male
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Liam Browne
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Liam Browne
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Do you want to find the inspiration to make positive changes? Want to overcome obstacles? Want to figure out what you're supposed to be doing with your life? Are you suffering from depression, and want a way out? Are you looking for some quirky inspiration? Then keep reading!
During this rapturous adventure, you will become empowered to take that step you have been putting off for so long. Let the true you step forward and dazzle the world. Become what you were born to be.
The story follows my journey from being a football-mad, lager-drinking, drug-taking, drug-dealing atheist in 2011 to, 12 months later, being in Guatemala for the end of the Mayan calendar and heading to Peru. Ayahuasca was calling me to the Amazon. The book interweaves my spiritual travels in the Americas and pivotal life events, like the death of my mother, domestic abuse, and dealing with depression. Suicide seemed the only option as my depression intensified. I thought drugs would be the best option, taking a large overdose of something. I didn't want to jump in front of a train or a car and ruin people's commute and cause disruption, and I didn't want to make a mess of it and end up a cabbage.
I said to my body and my mind, "I’m gonna give you three years to sort this out and try everything to get better. I’d have either happiness or death. If that meant becoming a monk, I’d do it; if it meant getting a sex change, I’d do it. I needed a path and direction. I needed something to live for. I wasn't going to loaf around. If I really wanted to die, I had to prove it to myself, and I had three years to do it."
Here we go....
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