
Everything I Have Is Yours
A Marriage
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2021 New York Times Book Review Notable Books of the Year
From New York Times best-selling author Eleanor Henderson comes a turbulent love story meets harrowing medical mystery: the true story of the author’s 20-year marriage defined by her husband’s chronic illness - and a testament to the endurance of love.
Eleanor met Aaron when she was just a teenager, and he was working at a local record store - older, experienced, and irresistibly charming. Escaping the clichés of fleeting young love, their summer romance bloomed into a relationship that survived college and culminated in a marriage and two children. From the outside looking in, their life had all the trappings of what most would consider a success story.
But, as in any marriage, things weren’t always as they seemed. On top of the typical stresses of parenting, money, and work, there were the untended wounds of depression, addiction, and childhood trauma. And then, one day, out of nowhere, a rash appeared on Aaron’s arms. Soon, it had morphed into painful lesions covering his body.
Eleanor was as baffled as the doctors. There was no obvious diagnosis, let alone a cure. And as years passed and the lesions gave way to Aaron’s increasingly disturbed concerns about the source of his sickness, the husband she loved seemed to unravel before her eyes. A new fissure ruptured in their marriage, and new questions piled onto old ones: Where does physical illness end and mental illness begin? Where does one person end and another begin? And how do we exist alongside someone else’s suffering?
Emotional, intimate, and at times agonizing, Everything I Have Is Yours tells the story of a marriage tested by powerful forces outside both partners’ control. It’s not only a memoir of a wife’s tireless quest to heal her husband, but also one that asks just what it means to accept someone as they are.
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"Love is patient, love is kind, but in Eleanor Henderson’s new memoir, love is also senseless, chaotic, pathological. You want a peek behind the curtain of someone else’s marriage? Read this book. You won’t be able to put it down." (Mary Beth Keane, best-selling author of Ask Again, Yes)
"Everything I Have is Yours is a gripping portrait of a marriage so full of love, chaos, and the sort of heart-breaking, head-slapping contradictions and consolations that it will leave you wondering how any of us survives the institution. Eleanor Henderson is a writer of extraordinary talent, depth, and feeling, and this memoir might be the most candid book I’ve ever read." (Adrienne Brodeur, best-selling author of Wild Game: My Mother, Her Lover, and Me)
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- Erin Lambert Hartman
- 12-17-21
A Story that Looks Hard at the Meaning of ‘For Better or For Worse’
An honest, heartfelt memoir about trying to live up to the expectations all marriages hold, and the inevitable disappointments that come when we, and the one we love, repeatedly fall short. Henderson bravely explores the choices she’s made as the wife of a gifted man whose prospects dim as he begins suffering physical and mental breakdowns, for which there’s limited help and many dissatisfying answers. Few stories examine the struggles women face who try to support husbands haunted by sexual trauma and a mysterious illness.
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- Amazon Customer
- 09-24-21
Awesome book
This is the most vulnerable,saddest,scariest,most amazing and hopeful book i have ever read. What a journey of love and spiritual enlightenment written in the most real and poetic voice. Inspiring Courage to accept and live one day at a time. ❤️
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- Wendy
- 01-14-23
difficult to get through
I am not fan of giving 1 star reviews on books, however, this story was rough. it was extremely graphic. it was painful to read and listen to.
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- Rachael
- 08-17-21
I feel like I was listening to a political agenda
From the constant reminder the the author and her husband are vegetarians to the constant mention of "white privilege" and "white supremest" The only thing I got from this book was the authors political ideation. Horrible. Hopefully I can get my credit back.
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- KG
- 02-24-24
Heavy, slow love story
A heavy memoir - how much can one couple endure? This is not a book I’d read or listen to again.
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- 08-19-21
Yuck! Exhausting! I hate these people!
Only a masochist could enjoy this tale of exhausting misery. I left with very little respect for the author. We never learn if the husband is crazy but we do know the wife is. Don’t spend your time or your money.
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