
He Wanted the Moon
The Madness and Medical Genius of Dr. Perry Baird, and His Daughter's Quest to Know Him
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Soon to be a major motion picture, from Brad Pitt and Tony Kushner
A Washington Post Best Book of 2015
A mid-century doctor's raw, unvarnished account of his own descent into madness, and his daughter's attempt to piece his life back together and make sense of her own. Texas-born and Harvard-educated, Dr. Perry Baird was a rising medical star in the late 1920s and 1930s. Early in his career, ahead of his time, he grew fascinated with identifying the biochemical root of manic depression, just as he began to suffer from it himself. By the time the results of his groundbreaking experiments were published, Dr. Baird had been institutionalized multiple times, his medical license revoked, and his wife and daughters estranged. He later received a lobotomy and died from a consequent seizure, his research incomplete, his achievements unrecognized.
Mimi Baird grew up never fully knowing this story, as her family went silent about the father who had been absent for most of her childhood. Decades later, a string of extraordinary coincidences led to the recovery of a manuscript which Dr. Baird had worked on throughout his brutal institutionalization, confinement, and escape. This remarkable document, reflecting periods of both manic exhilaration and clear-headed health, presents a startling portrait of a man who was a uniquely astute observer of his own condition, struggling with a disease for which there was no cure, racing against time to unlock the key to treatment before his illness became impossible to manage.
Fifty years after being told her father would forever be “ill” and “away,” Mimi Baird set off on a quest to piece together the memoir and the man. In time her fingers became stained with the lead of the pencil he had used to write his manuscript, as she devoted herself to understanding who he was, why he disappeared, and what legacy she had inherited. The result of his extraordinary record and her journey to bring his name to light is He Wanted the Moon, an unforgettable testament to the reaches of the mind and the redeeming power of a determined heart.
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Critic reviews
“An extraordinary Möbius strip of a book...Autobiography, biography, science, history and literature all in one, as instructive as any textbook and utterly impossible to put down...The text of Dr. Baird’s manuscript is haunting. The tone is one a suspense writer might struggle to sustain: The most unreliable of narrators, Dr. Baird is objective, charming, humorous, then suddenly just a little off, and then flat-out gone, leaving an irrational stranger in his place. The reader can almost watch the circuits in his brain surge and dim just as, Ms. Baird reports, the handwriting in the manuscript morphed from disciplined to disorderly and back again.” —The New York Times
“Extraordinary...a remarkably eloquent account of mental illness, reminiscent of Kay Redfield Jamison’s An Unquiet Mind and Susanna Kaysen’s Girl, Interrupted. Perry Baird emerges as thoughtful and at times eerily aware of his condition as well as his inability to elude either its symptoms or the primitive treatments for them…The elder Baird’s narrative is cinematic, featuring Ratched-like nurses and an escape scene straight out of The Fugitive... [Dr. Baird] never really knew his daughter — or her achievement in telling this story.” —The Washington Post
“Baird’s lonely, angry, grief-stricken, and occasionally grandiose account of his illness and its shattering costs is the reason we can’t put [this book] down. His sharply detailed recollections are sometimes sane and sometimes not, but his writing is lucid even when his thinking isn’t. His manuscript is a plea to understand his experience and, by extension, others’.”—The Boston Globe
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- 12-13-21
fascinating
A captivating and fascinating true story about early mental health facilities and the inward look into one's unhealthy mind.
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- Christian Fullerton Amendola
- 05-08-19
Lyrical Narration
One of the top memoirs I've read this year.
The author brought life to scenes as if I were watching a play.
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- SBey
- 05-13-15
Solid, fantastic read.
Narrators brought so much life to a story begging to be told. So heartfelt and real to the end.
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- H. O'Hollaren
- 05-12-22
Heartbreaking glimpse into the life of a bipolar man in the 1940s
Ms. Baird’s extensive research through her father’s papers as a way to get to know him after his death in a way she was never able to in life sketches out a troubled life, revealing horrifying conditions of treatment of the mentally ill in the 1940s. Fascinating and heartbreaking by turns, Ms. Baird’s book braids together her memories, her father’s account of his time in and out of mental hospitals, and the medical records of said hospitals to create a multi-dimensional story and vivid insight into life with mental illness. The book is good, the audio recording features three narrators, one of whom was too over-dramatic for my tastes.
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