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Frightening night terrors have seized Eric Russo’s sleeping hours and are now disrupting his life. To understand the reasons for his nightmares, his psychoanalyst suggests hypnosis as a path to uncover the underlying trauma of his nocturnal episodes. These sessions eventually open a portal to an extraordinary past-life narrative of a Colonial builder and militiaman which may explain his pathology.
Travel with Eric Russo as he, his wife Tess, and others piece together the solution to the mystery of the night terrors, and perhaps a path to a civil national dialogue. Eric must confront the spiritual implications of the past-life sessions and the folly of trying to retreat from an engaged life during toxic political times. It’s a journey rich with betrayal, conflict, drama, humor, and ultimately, redemption.
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