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Sarah Puckett
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Walker Williams
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Ashley James
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Crew Collins
The rush of the high. The mind tingling feeling of that first line. This secret of mine has spiraled out of control, but I can’t stop. The drugs fill a void, helping me feel something and nothing all at once.
But him… He makes me feel everything.
Anderson Walker
He’s been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Thick as thieves. Life happened, our friendship has changed. Now I’m left with feelings I don’t know what to do with. There’s more to him hidden beneath the surface.
A dangerous secret.
A deadly obsession.
Love is worth fighting for. And the battle has just begun…
*Illicit Desires is the third book in The Deepest Desires interconnected series. It is a friends to lovers MM romance, and it touches on heavy subjects, such as drug use and overdose.
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Five years ago, I gave my heart and soul to my professor. He made me fall for him, only to destroy me with his silence. I've never been the same. I finally have the chance to leave this town, start over, and try to move on with my life. But what happens when fate insists the chapter of your life that haunts you isn't over?
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Yes, YES on every SINGLE level!!!
- By VA on 01-07-24
By: Ashley James
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Brazen Affairs
- Hidden Affairs, Book 1
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Iggy Toma, Aiden Snow
- Length: 8 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged
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My entire life has been one steady plan after another. Go to college. Get married. Have a successful career. More than a decade goes by, and my entire world is rocked in more ways than one. Everything I thought I knew is ripped from under me in one fell swoop. Then I meet him: the enticing man behind the camera with the boyish grin and charismatic energy who makes me question everything. He was only supposed to be a means to an end. But what I got was so much more.
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Storyline gaps and disappointments
- By Maria Roberts on 07-03-23
By: Ashley James
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Broken
- An Unlucky 13 Standalone
- By: Andi Jaxon
- Narrated by: Darcy Stark, Iggy Toma
- Length: 9 hrs and 22 mins
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After years of drowning myself in parties, hookups, and pain, all it takes is one viral sex tape to be given a choice: Hide out on an island or lose my trust fund. Having to share a room with the one man I let hurt me is my worst nightmare. I’m the broken shell of the boy he walked away from on the worst day of my life. I hate him almost as much as I hate myself.
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Completely ridiculous story. Decent narration.
- By CJ on 01-01-24
By: Andi Jaxon
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Eight Seconds to Ride
- Copper Lake, Book 1
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Alex Kydd, Aaron Shedlock
- Length: 9 hrs and 19 mins
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The weight of the legacy I carry is a constant tug in my mind, with the ghosts of the generations before me always whispering for me to push harder, train longer, be better. In the eight seconds I have to ride, everything else falls away, and my sole focus is on doing what I do best. I am Shooter Graham, consecutive three-time world champion bronc rider. No one has ever come close to taking the title since I've had it… until him. Sterling Addams. The new cowboy in town with dark hair, eyes like honey, and a taste for me he likes to pretend he doesn't have.
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Cowboys!!!!
- By Yj on 03-26-24
By: Ashley James
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Until You
- By: Briar Prescott
- Narrated by: Devon Ryder
- Length: 8 hrs and 43 mins
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I’m the first one to tell you I have issues. Trust issues. Family issues. Probably a few others I haven’t discovered yet. Which is why I prefer to keep my life as simple and uncomplicated as possible. Until him. Blake McAdams barrels into my life and refuses to leave. He’s relentlessly optimistic, sexy as hell, annoyingly persistent, and…wants to be friends? Because…he thinks I’m interesting? Yeah, I’ll pass. Thanks. Only, somehow, we end up doing just that.
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The book was stunning. The audiobook was perfect.
- By I.W. on 09-29-23
By: Briar Prescott
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Barred Desires
- The Deepest Desires, Book 1
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Eric Corbyn, Michael Gallagher
- Length: 6 hrs and 30 mins
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I have everything I could ever want—a great family, awesome friends, a girlfriend, and I’m headed off to my dream college. But the past is always there, lurking like a shadow in the night....
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Barred Desires
- By holly_hawk_reads_a_lot on 07-01-23
By: Ashley James
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Kismet
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Oliver Highpoint, Silas Hart
- Length: 11 hrs and 57 mins
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Five years ago, I gave my heart and soul to my professor. He made me fall for him, only to destroy me with his silence. I've never been the same. I finally have the chance to leave this town, start over, and try to move on with my life. But what happens when fate insists the chapter of your life that haunts you isn't over?
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Yes, YES on every SINGLE level!!!
- By VA on 01-07-24
By: Ashley James
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Brazen Affairs
- Hidden Affairs, Book 1
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Iggy Toma, Aiden Snow
- Length: 8 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged
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My entire life has been one steady plan after another. Go to college. Get married. Have a successful career. More than a decade goes by, and my entire world is rocked in more ways than one. Everything I thought I knew is ripped from under me in one fell swoop. Then I meet him: the enticing man behind the camera with the boyish grin and charismatic energy who makes me question everything. He was only supposed to be a means to an end. But what I got was so much more.
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Storyline gaps and disappointments
- By Maria Roberts on 07-03-23
By: Ashley James
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Broken
- An Unlucky 13 Standalone
- By: Andi Jaxon
- Narrated by: Darcy Stark, Iggy Toma
- Length: 9 hrs and 22 mins
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After years of drowning myself in parties, hookups, and pain, all it takes is one viral sex tape to be given a choice: Hide out on an island or lose my trust fund. Having to share a room with the one man I let hurt me is my worst nightmare. I’m the broken shell of the boy he walked away from on the worst day of my life. I hate him almost as much as I hate myself.
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Completely ridiculous story. Decent narration.
- By CJ on 01-01-24
By: Andi Jaxon
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Eight Seconds to Ride
- Copper Lake, Book 1
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Alex Kydd, Aaron Shedlock
- Length: 9 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
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The weight of the legacy I carry is a constant tug in my mind, with the ghosts of the generations before me always whispering for me to push harder, train longer, be better. In the eight seconds I have to ride, everything else falls away, and my sole focus is on doing what I do best. I am Shooter Graham, consecutive three-time world champion bronc rider. No one has ever come close to taking the title since I've had it… until him. Sterling Addams. The new cowboy in town with dark hair, eyes like honey, and a taste for me he likes to pretend he doesn't have.
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Cowboys!!!!
- By Yj on 03-26-24
By: Ashley James
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Until You
- By: Briar Prescott
- Narrated by: Devon Ryder
- Length: 8 hrs and 43 mins
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I’m the first one to tell you I have issues. Trust issues. Family issues. Probably a few others I haven’t discovered yet. Which is why I prefer to keep my life as simple and uncomplicated as possible. Until him. Blake McAdams barrels into my life and refuses to leave. He’s relentlessly optimistic, sexy as hell, annoyingly persistent, and…wants to be friends? Because…he thinks I’m interesting? Yeah, I’ll pass. Thanks. Only, somehow, we end up doing just that.
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The book was stunning. The audiobook was perfect.
- By I.W. on 09-29-23
By: Briar Prescott
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Hold Me Under
- Water, Air, Earth, Fire, Book 1
- By: Riley Nash
- Narrated by: J.F. Harding, Stephen Dexter
- Length: 9 hrs and 34 mins
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Victor Lang had everything—looks, money, fame. A chance to become the greatest swimmer in history. Until a failed dope test brought him crashing down. According to the rumors, he turned into a recluse, a drug addict, a whore. Broken beyond repair. Incapable of love.
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- By Amazon Customer on 01-04-23
By: Riley Nash
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Romeo Falling
- By: Jesse H Reign
- Narrated by: Zachary Zaba
- Length: 7 hrs and 31 mins
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Romeo and I were friends long before we were lovers. Best friends. Ride or die. What started as an innocent kiss slowly unraveled and shattered, giving way to years of tears and total obsession. Now I’m back in the small town I call home, staring straight into the face of the only man I’ve ever loved…or hated. To make matters worse, his wife stands at his side, smiling sweetly as my heart breaks all over again. When life throws us back together, cracks quickly start to appear in the perfect façade of their marriage, and I’m left fighting the unstoppable force that is my attraction to Romeo.
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Tiger Whelmed
- By Zoë Miranda on 02-13-25
By: Jesse H Reign
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All Roads Lead to You
- A 1980s Stepbrother Road Trip Romance
- By: Courtney W. Dixon
- Narrated by: Harley Chase
- Length: 9 hrs and 8 mins
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Nicholas Theodoropoulos had been my stepbrother since I was fourteen. Mom died when I was twelve, and I resented Dad remarrying so soon. Even worse, my stepbrother had grown into a gorgeous man. I hated looking at him, reminding me every day of what I could never have. No one knew I was gay and never would. But when my best friend backed out of our road trip to California, Dad forced me to travel with my stepbrother. It was the only way if I wanted to go on this journey I’d been planning since middle school. Nothing good would come out of this.
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all roads to love
- By Debra on 02-21-25
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Reaching Reed
- Behind the Camera, Book 1
- By: Cora Rose, Nicole Dykes
- Narrated by: Cooper North, Zane Daniels
- Length: 7 hrs and 5 mins
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Reed Ellis is absolutely gorgeous but a total newbie to camming, a virtual nobody in my world. I should have just deleted his message request for a steamy on-camera collaboration. Not everyone is cut out to be a camboy. But there's just something about him I couldn't resist. He's timid and inexperienced, quiet and closed off, but his fumbling first times play out scorching hot for the cameras, and our videos together are an instant success. I know I should just ride this out, sit back and watch the money roll in, and then move on.
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Th authors portrayal of self discovery
- By Ryan on 02-15-25
By: Cora Rose, and others
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Whiskey Nights and Neon Dreams
- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Aaron Shedlock, Teddy Hamilton
- Length: 8 hrs and 4 mins
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The memory of Josiah DeMille has haunted me for close to a decade. The way he looked. The way he smelled. The way his lips felt pressed against mine, even when they shouldn't have been. The one person I've never been able to get over. The one singular part of my past I've never been able to move on from. In every lyric sung into the microphone, in every chord strummed on the guitar, in the bottom of every single whiskey bottle, he's there. His memory has me in a chokehold. His absence a gaping hole in my chest. I gave up years ago, wondering if I'd ever stop thinking about him.
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Another wonderful story
- By Julie on 03-06-24
By: Ashley James
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The Billionaire's Boyfriend
- My Billionaire, Book 1
- By: Robin Knight
- Narrated by: Simon Dornet
- Length: 4 hrs and 10 mins
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Flower deliveryman and aspiring novelist Matthew Darcy never expected to become the object of anyone's affection, let alone attract the attention of someone like billionaire Calvin Croft. In fact, two men couldn't live more different lives than Matt and Cal. But romance has a magical way of making opposites attract.
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Fun read.
- By LAN on 01-23-25
By: Robin Knight
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The Good Liar
- Infidelity, Book 1
- By: C.P. Harris
- Narrated by: Aiden Snow, Liam DiCosimo
- Length: 11 hrs and 5 mins
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Six years ago, Jasper Des Moines traded in the only life he knew. In order to keep a promise and a secret, he walked from the only man he’d ever loved. Now, he has a career in need of constant defending, a best friend who knows nothing about his past, and a husband he should love. He has the life he believes he deserves. Until one day, the unfinished business he left behind catches up with him, and he’s faced with the one man he’d never been able to resist or forget.
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Great story
- By Nova on 09-03-23
By: C.P. Harris
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Promises of Forever
- By: Nicky James
- Narrated by: Nick J. Russo
- Length: 10 hrs and 35 mins
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Childhood tragedy left Koa Burgard with many scars. Reclusive and still healing, he is sent to summer camp, where the other kids tease and bully. All except the outgoing, popular boy from his cabin. A boy who dreams about being a hockey star. A tentative friendship forms. Every summer, they reconnect for adventure. Every winter, they write letters back and forth.
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⭐️⭐️ 5 STARS ⭐️⭐️
- By ❤️Cyndi Marie❤️🎧Audiobook Addicts🎧 on 03-28-24
By: Nicky James
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Creek
- Honorably Discharged, Book 1
- By: Nora Phoenix, E.M. Lindsey
- Narrated by: John Solo
- Length: 8 hrs and 47 mins
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Accepting my career in the Army is over after losing my leg is hard. But the obnoxious, good looking, glass-half-full surfer in my physical therapy sessions is worse. And god help him if he doesn’t stop trying to give me advice. Living in a home with three of my closest veteran buddies is a challenge as we all have our crosses to bear and wounds to heal from, but mine only seem to be getting deeper with every step forward I take. I already have to adjust to a new life as a civilian. I don’t need a sexuality crisis to go with it.
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Stellar performance and story. 🌶️🌶️🌶️ at the mid to end of the book
- By KR on 01-19-25
By: Nora Phoenix, and others
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Dare You
- Dare to Try, Book 1
- By: Ella Frank, Brooke Blaine
- Narrated by: Perry Bishop, Wesley Paul
- Length: 6 hrs and 37 mins
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Sebastian “Bash” Vogel, the magnetic, cross-dressing CEO of AnaVoge, has long been a lone island when it comes to his personal life. Self-assured and playful, he’s never left wanting for suitors - but Bash isn’t looking for something permanent. He’s more than fulfilled with his company and his closest friends, and no one is going to shake up the status quo. That is, until he’s thrown over the shoulder of one of Chicago’s finest and hauled out of a burning building.
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Good story. Good narration.
- By Aethena Drake on 12-06-21
By: Ella Frank, and others
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Egotistical Puckboy
- Puckboys, Book 1
- By: Eden Finley, Saxon James
- Narrated by: Iggy Toma, Alexander Cendese
- Length: 7 hrs and 36 mins
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When it comes to hockey, I'm all about the game. I've worked for years to be one of the best in the league, and l've done it without splashing my orientation all over the tabloids. My hockey image is one I've carefully cultivated, and after one night with Ezra Palaszczuk, I risk it all. He's cocky, obnoxious, and has an ego bigger than Massachusetts. And okay, maybe he's the sexiest man I've ever known. We'll never get along. Not when we sleep together. Not even when my possessive streak awakens. That doesn't stop us from falling into bed together over and over again.
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I Wanted to Like It
- By Marcus on 03-01-22
By: Eden Finley, and others
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Season's Change
- Trade Season, Book 1
- By: Cait Nary
- Narrated by: Simon Dornet, Lance West
- Length: 10 hrs and 55 mins
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Olly Järvinen has a long way to go. He's got a fresh start playing for a new team, but getting his hockey career back on track is going to take more than a change of scenery. He's got to shut his past out and focus. On the game, not on his rookie roommate and his annoyingly sunny disposition—and annoyingly distracting good looks. All Benji Bryzinski ever wanted was to play in the big leagues, and he's not going to waste one single second of his rookie season. Yoga, kale smoothies, and guided meditation help keep his head in the game. But his roommate keeps knocking him off track.
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Ragging the puck
- By Denis Adair on 09-06-24
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- Trisha C.
- 05-02-24
Anderson and Crrw
Not your normal best friends to lovers romance.
Anderson and Crew’s desires are off the charts. The emotions run deep.
The secret that Crew has almost cost him his life .
Anderson is compassionate, dominate in their relationship.
A great story that touches on the subject of drug use and how it affects the people who are the closest.
Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams told this story with compassion and so much emotion. Very well done
#The flock on tour
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- Canadian Girl Reads
- 04-20-24
Anderson and Crew
𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙞𝙜, 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨 𝙥𝙚𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙝𝙚'𝙨 𝙖 𝙙𝙖𝙢𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄'𝙢 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙧𝙚𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙚 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙞𝙢.
Iʟʟɪᴄɪᴛ Dᴇsɪʀᴇs → Ashley James | The Deepest Desires → Book 3
Anderson ~ Crew
🍁🍁🍁🍁
Anderson and Crew have been best friends forever and after going to different colleges, their friendship has changed but when they come back together for summer break, their relationship changes even more.
Anderson and Crew's journey is a wild and, at times, scary one. Anderson is a saint for dealing with and helping Crew with his demons. Their connection is undeniable and their chemistry is off the charts. There are some very heavy topics that need to be taken seriously if certain topics are triggers for the reader.
🎧 Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a great job of giving life to Anderson, Crew and their story.
Get ready for...
🏳️🌈 MM
💜 Best Friends
❤️🩹 Hurt/Comfort
💜 College
🏳️🌈 Sexual Awakening (Bisexual)
🎙️ First-Person, Dual
⚠️ Sensitive Content Present
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- Book Lover
- 05-24-24
Heartbreakingly beautiful...
Illicit Desires is book three in the deepest desires series. It's a best friends to lovers, MM romance with some triggers.
This is Crew and Anderson's story. It's filled with love, angst, true friendships and lust. Their chemistry is smoking hot. I absolutely loved the true affection between these two from the beginning. It is truly a heartbreakingly beautiful story, full of emotion and all the feels. A really good read.
Michael Gallagher and Sarah Puckett did a great job portraying these characters.
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- Ketchup2488
- 04-06-24
Friends to lovers
Crew and Anderson are best friends. Crew has been hiding his drug use even after an accidental overdose. During a camping trip, Anderson and Crew discover that they both have feelings for each other. From there, their relationship grows, but Crew continues to struggle with his addiction. When Anderson finally realizes there’s a problem, he tries to help. However, Crew doesn’t believe he has a problem and leaves. When Crew’s dealer dies in front of him, Crew must either accept that that will be his fate soon or accept the help his friends are offering.
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- BooksonStereo
- 12-25-24
A Breath of Fresh Air
Illicit Desires expands the MM genre, giving it new life. Highly recommend this series! And also, the spice is on point.
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- holly_hawk_reads_a_lot
- 01-12-25
Illicit Desires
Illicit Desires is the 3rd book in The Deepest Desires series. This book is about Anderson and Crew and is told from both of their points of view.
Anderson and Crew have been friends forever. They parted ways going to college, and now are back together. Their relationship has changed. Crew has some demons and Anderson helps him get through them.
I loved getting to know Anderson and Crew and seeing how they both helped each other.
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- Kymora78
- 03-25-24
Oh my...this was an amazing story
With each installment of the Deepest Desires series Ashley James gets bolder and definitely more explicit. Michael Gallagher is amazing and has been an asset in performing in this title as well as the previous ones...but omg Walker Williams made me feel as if I was inside the head and body of a drug addict...especially one who is going through withdrawals. My heart bled for Crew and I was glad when he and Anderson finally realized their friendship could be more. Also, hearing Sarah Puckett perform as Kate was a delight! I really wish Kate and Weston could get together...whether in a novella or off page it would be great!As always James brought the 🔥🔥...Crew and Anderson will be in my thoughts long after I finish this.
5 stars - I would listen to this again
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- Dezzylou
- 03-25-24
Heartbreaking
This story is sooo good. It’s so heartbreaking. You will seethe with anger, cry for the hurt and pain, yell for the injustice and hurt for the things could have been done that weren’t. This whole series was just phenomenal and finished with a bang. The narration was just spot on. Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a wonderful job.
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- jlaymon
- 06-10-24
Very Deep, Very touching!
covers very emotional very raw subjects!! great narration with the whole series. Great ACCURATE details in the story. Really enjoyed this entire series.
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- FS Meurinne - Book Enticer
- 04-10-24
A poignant exploration of addiction
This audiobook is the concluding part of The Deepest Desires series, and it features powerful narration by Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett, and Walker Williams. The story revolves around Crew and Anderson, who start as friends and eventually fall in love. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful MM romance that explores the complexities of love alongside the harrowing realities of addiction. The narration adds depth to the raw and compelling storyline, painting a vivid picture of their friendship that blossoms into something more amidst adversity. The story is a poignant exploration of the darkness of addiction and the redemptive power of love, made even more impactful through the emotive performances of Gallagher, Puckett, and Williams. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful finale that leaves a lasting impression.
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