
Illicit Desires
The Deepest Desires, Book 3
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Narrated by:
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Michael Gallagher
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Sarah Puckett
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Walker Williams
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By:
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Ashley James
About this listen
Crew Collins
The rush of the high. The mind tingling feeling of that first line. This secret of mine has spiraled out of control, but I can’t stop. The drugs fill a void, helping me feel something and nothing all at once.
But him… He makes me feel everything.
Anderson Walker
He’s been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Thick as thieves. Life happened, our friendship has changed. Now I’m left with feelings I don’t know what to do with. There’s more to him hidden beneath the surface.
A dangerous secret.
A deadly obsession.
Love is worth fighting for. And the battle has just begun…
*Illicit Desires is the third book in The Deepest Desires interconnected series. It is a friends to lovers MM romance, and it touches on heavy subjects, such as drug use and overdose.
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There are many words for what Oliver does for a living, and none of them are very kind. Oliver's time in that industry is nearly at an end, so when a gorgeous older man with sad eyes stumbles into his path, Oliver finds it impossible to turn him away. Victor looks at him like he's an angel, even when Oliver feels like a devil, but he knows better than to hope. After all, men like them are only ever destined for star-crossed love. As months of separation carry on, Oliver realizes that maybe he really is willing to fight for what he wants and, more importantly, for who.
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Sweet love story, FAVORITE narrator!!
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By: E.M. Lindsey
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Roman
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- By: Grae Bryan
- Narrated by: Michael Ferraiuolo
- Length: 8 hrs and 8 mins
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Danny Kingman is used to fending for himself. Working nonstop as an ER nurse to pay for his mother’s care, he’s been putting his own life on hold for as long as he can remember. But when an unbelievably hot, strangely intense man saves him from a mugging, Danny has a feeling everything is about to change. Especially when that man suddenly pops out a pair of fangs.
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will there be more on Audible
- By Anonymous User on 06-07-23
By: Grae Bryan
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Garron Park
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- By: Nordika Night
- Narrated by: Brandon Francis, Gabriel Michael
- Length: 7 hrs and 8 mins
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When Devon Sawyer desperately searches for his brother in the middle of the night, beaten and broken, he finds Maddox Kane instead. With his dad on his trail, he has no choice but to stand on his enemy's doorstep and let Maddox help. Maddox has never seen Devon this vulnerable. Living in Garron's trailer park means families dole out discipline on the regular and violence is a part of life, but something about how far Jim Sawyer takes it this time has Maddox unnerved.
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Perfect choices for Maddox and Devon!
- By Sandy Reads on 03-19-25
By: Nordika Night
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Anyone but Me
- By: JD Frost
- Narrated by: Javi Wilder, Simon Dornet
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Oakley Farrow is your typical high school senior. He stays up late, cramming for finals. He has impossible deadlines to meet. He worries about his future as graduation lurks just around the corner. He has to defend himself from his abusive uncle. He has to keep his sister safe. He has to survive the constant torture from his bully, Asher Brooks—the seemingly arrogant and cruel star quarterback. Okay… so maybe not your typical high school senior.
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I'm confused...
- By KW on 03-04-25
By: JD Frost
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Finn
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- By: Ashley James
- Narrated by: Gregory Salinas, Alex Kydd
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great mm
- By Christine S on 05-05-25
By: Ashley James
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Broken
- An Unlucky 13 Standalone
- By: Andi Jaxon
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After years of drowning myself in parties, hookups, and pain, all it takes is one viral sex tape to be given a choice: Hide out on an island or lose my trust fund. Having to share a room with the one man I let hurt me is my worst nightmare. I’m the broken shell of the boy he walked away from on the worst day of my life. I hate him almost as much as I hate myself.
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Completely ridiculous story. Decent narration.
- By CJ on 01-01-24
By: Andi Jaxon
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The Step Bet
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- By: Devon McCormack, Riley Hart
- Narrated by: Tim Paige
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Sometimes I want to punch that smirk off Atlas McCallister's pretty face. He's cocky. A troublemaker. A pain. And, unfortunately, my stepbrother. We've been fire and kerosene since our parents got together, and to keep from exploding into fistfights, we've used challenges, dares, and bets to battle out our differences. Our past bets have been a little inappropriate—scandalous, even—but Atlas's latest bet has gone too far. Do I really believe if he loses, my straight stepbrother is gonna mess around with a guy? And not just any guy: me, his rival and nemesis?
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Absolutely loved it!
- By BeSafe71 on 02-26-24
By: Devon McCormack, and others
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All Roads Lead to You
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- Narrated by: Harley Chase
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Nicholas Theodoropoulos had been my stepbrother since I was fourteen. Mom died when I was twelve, and I resented Dad remarrying so soon. Even worse, my stepbrother had grown into a gorgeous man. I hated looking at him, reminding me every day of what I could never have. No one knew I was gay and never would. But when my best friend backed out of our road trip to California, Dad forced me to travel with my stepbrother. It was the only way if I wanted to go on this journey I’d been planning since middle school. Nothing good would come out of this.
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all roads to love
- By Debra on 02-21-25
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Sinful Vows
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- By: Deborah Garland
- Narrated by: Lexi Evans, DB West, Troy Duran
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It was supposed to be a one-night stand with a sinfully gorgeous stranger. A man I’d never see again. I was stranded, he had a hotel room (which I had broken into), and the rest is history. Until he shows up at my doorstep five years later with a marriage proposal.
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Darcy and Ewan
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Reaching Reed
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Reed Ellis is absolutely gorgeous but a total newbie to camming, a virtual nobody in my world. I should have just deleted his message request for a steamy on-camera collaboration. Not everyone is cut out to be a camboy. But there's just something about him I couldn't resist. He's timid and inexperienced, quiet and closed off, but his fumbling first times play out scorching hot for the cameras, and our videos together are an instant success. I know I should just ride this out, sit back and watch the money roll in, and then move on.
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Loved
- By 75_SweetestBook on 04-28-25
By: Cora Rose, and others
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Stepbrother Dearest
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- By: Willow Dixon
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Of all the people who could have seen me when I was at my most vulnerable, it had to be him. Caleb. My stepbrother and the golden child of our messed up blended family. We barely know each other, but for some reason, he takes care of me when an incident at the club leaves me helpless and alone. He hates me as much as I hate him, but something about his bossy attitude and unflappable calm soothes me. I don't want to want him, but no one has ever made me feel the way he does.
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Stepbrothers but also not really stepbrothers
- By Jensen on 08-22-24
By: Willow Dixon
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Bad Wrong Things
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The day Clint sees his son, Joey, off to basic training, the young man he’s devoted his life to extracts one promise from him: spend the summer doing something selfish for a change. The request seems harmless enough until Joey puts his best friend, Raven, in charge of seeing it through.
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This was BAD and WRONG
- By VA on 04-28-23
By: C.P. Harris
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- Trisha C.
- 05-02-24
Anderson and Crrw
Not your normal best friends to lovers romance.
Anderson and Crew’s desires are off the charts. The emotions run deep.
The secret that Crew has almost cost him his life .
Anderson is compassionate, dominate in their relationship.
A great story that touches on the subject of drug use and how it affects the people who are the closest.
Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams told this story with compassion and so much emotion. Very well done
#The flock on tour
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- Book Lover
- 05-24-24
Heartbreakingly beautiful...
Illicit Desires is book three in the deepest desires series. It's a best friends to lovers, MM romance with some triggers.
This is Crew and Anderson's story. It's filled with love, angst, true friendships and lust. Their chemistry is smoking hot. I absolutely loved the true affection between these two from the beginning. It is truly a heartbreakingly beautiful story, full of emotion and all the feels. A really good read.
Michael Gallagher and Sarah Puckett did a great job portraying these characters.
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- Canadian Girl Reads
- 04-20-24
Anderson and Crew
𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙞𝙜, 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨 𝙥𝙚𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙝𝙚'𝙨 𝙖 𝙙𝙖𝙢𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄'𝙢 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙧𝙚𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙚 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙞𝙢.
Iʟʟɪᴄɪᴛ Dᴇsɪʀᴇs → Ashley James | The Deepest Desires → Book 3
Anderson ~ Crew
🍁🍁🍁🍁
Anderson and Crew have been best friends forever and after going to different colleges, their friendship has changed but when they come back together for summer break, their relationship changes even more.
Anderson and Crew's journey is a wild and, at times, scary one. Anderson is a saint for dealing with and helping Crew with his demons. Their connection is undeniable and their chemistry is off the charts. There are some very heavy topics that need to be taken seriously if certain topics are triggers for the reader.
🎧 Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a great job of giving life to Anderson, Crew and their story.
Get ready for...
🏳️🌈 MM
💜 Best Friends
❤️🩹 Hurt/Comfort
💜 College
🏳️🌈 Sexual Awakening (Bisexual)
🎙️ First-Person, Dual
⚠️ Sensitive Content Present
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- Ketchup2488
- 04-06-24
Friends to lovers
Crew and Anderson are best friends. Crew has been hiding his drug use even after an accidental overdose. During a camping trip, Anderson and Crew discover that they both have feelings for each other. From there, their relationship grows, but Crew continues to struggle with his addiction. When Anderson finally realizes there’s a problem, he tries to help. However, Crew doesn’t believe he has a problem and leaves. When Crew’s dealer dies in front of him, Crew must either accept that that will be his fate soon or accept the help his friends are offering.
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- BooksonStereo
- 12-25-24
A Breath of Fresh Air
Illicit Desires expands the MM genre, giving it new life. Highly recommend this series! And also, the spice is on point.
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- holly_hawk_reads_a_lot
- 01-12-25
Illicit Desires
Illicit Desires is the 3rd book in The Deepest Desires series. This book is about Anderson and Crew and is told from both of their points of view.
Anderson and Crew have been friends forever. They parted ways going to college, and now are back together. Their relationship has changed. Crew has some demons and Anderson helps him get through them.
I loved getting to know Anderson and Crew and seeing how they both helped each other.
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- FS Meurinne - Book Enticer
- 04-10-24
A poignant exploration of addiction
This audiobook is the concluding part of The Deepest Desires series, and it features powerful narration by Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett, and Walker Williams. The story revolves around Crew and Anderson, who start as friends and eventually fall in love. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful MM romance that explores the complexities of love alongside the harrowing realities of addiction. The narration adds depth to the raw and compelling storyline, painting a vivid picture of their friendship that blossoms into something more amidst adversity. The story is a poignant exploration of the darkness of addiction and the redemptive power of love, made even more impactful through the emotive performances of Gallagher, Puckett, and Williams. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful finale that leaves a lasting impression.
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- Cindy
- 04-13-24
Love Crew and Anderson!
Illicit Desires is the emotional story of Crew and Anderson and the obstacles they face to get their happily ever after. It is hot and sexy yet heartbreaking and tragic, with addiction being the focus of this amazing story. Luckily, I have no experience with drug addiction but I feel like stories like these give me a better understanding of how addiction happens and the struggles addicts go through to overcome their addiction. I was not familiar with Ashley James before listening to this book but now I can’t wait to listen to the entire series. Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett and Walker Williams all did a wonderful job bringing this story to life.
🎧Pink Flamingo Productions, The Flock Reviewer
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- Kymora78
- 03-25-24
Oh my...this was an amazing story
With each installment of the Deepest Desires series Ashley James gets bolder and definitely more explicit. Michael Gallagher is amazing and has been an asset in performing in this title as well as the previous ones...but omg Walker Williams made me feel as if I was inside the head and body of a drug addict...especially one who is going through withdrawals. My heart bled for Crew and I was glad when he and Anderson finally realized their friendship could be more. Also, hearing Sarah Puckett perform as Kate was a delight! I really wish Kate and Weston could get together...whether in a novella or off page it would be great!As always James brought the 🔥🔥...Crew and Anderson will be in my thoughts long after I finish this.
5 stars - I would listen to this again
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- Dezzylou
- 03-25-24
Heartbreaking
This story is sooo good. It’s so heartbreaking. You will seethe with anger, cry for the hurt and pain, yell for the injustice and hurt for the things could have been done that weren’t. This whole series was just phenomenal and finished with a bang. The narration was just spot on. Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a wonderful job.
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