
Rebel to Your Will
A Story of Abuse, Father Hunger and Gospel Hope
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Sean DeMars
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“Hurt people hurt people. But those who have been called by grace become new creations.”
Emotional and raw, Sean DeMars tells his story of a life turned around. It is a tale of two families: one scarred by brokenness, another renewed by grace. In his storytelling, the tragedy and horror of his early years are punctuated with the beauty of restoration evident in the life he now leads. Abandoned by a father and abused by a mother, his search for a father finds a home with the King of heaven who graces him with love and sonship.
Follow his journey through abuse, drugs and prison, across the battlefield and mission field and into marriage, family and ministry in this personal, engaging and honest testament to God’s grace. As his life and his church are turned around, their stories become a platform to display how God chooses the nothings of the world. His story is the story of every sinner saved by grace: once a victim and rebel, now redeemed and reconciled.
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Best book I've ever read/listened to.
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Great testimony of God's power
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I had hoped Sean would narrate but understand that that might be difficult. The narrator did a good job. There were 2 to 3 hiccups that I caught including a whole paragraph that was repeated but nothing to distract from the story or message.
I am sure this was a hard book to pen but sharing how Jesus saved us from this world is so important. I am glad that we have this testimony we can refer to now. You aren't nothing Sean!
All I have is Christ
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