
Shimmering Around the Edges
A Memoir of OCD, Reality, and Finding God in Uncertainty
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Narrated by:
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Jacq Ainsworth
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Kathrine Snyder
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A compelling message in today's uncertain times. This fast-paced, novelistic memoir gives listeners an intimate look into Kathrine's struggle with OCD and PGAD, while weaving a deeper story of reality, identity, and meaning. A poignant true story of hope.
What happens when the voice of uncertainty never sleeps? OCD rituals have become Kathrine’s prison. A joyful and creative child, she is slowly being consumed by her compulsive attempts to understand relationships, sexuality, and faith. She spends days in endless prayer and confession, sleepless nights in computer research, and countless hours trying to comprehend the desires and sensations that most people understand by instinct. She just wants to know for sure. And she is convinced that she can find certainty and connection if she just researches a bit more and ruminates a bit longer.
When shocking news reveals that people around her are not who they seem to be—and she herself is not who she thought she was—her world turns upside down. As her frantic striving pushes her farther away from the connection and certainty she craves, Kathrine must discover the God who is with us, even through compulsion, confusion, and chaos.
Raw and redemptive, Shimmering Around the Edges not only gives hope to OCD sufferers, but also speaks to those who have experienced the disorientation of trauma or loss.
For anyone with emotional pain, especially if:
- You’re caught in the spiral of OCD.
- You’re confused about PGAD.
- You have religious anxiety.
- You have a parent with ASD.
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