
True Love and Suffering
A Caretaker’s Memoir of Trauma, Despair, and Other Blessings
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Bernardo De Paula
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Pavel Ythjall
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After only a year of marriage, Pavel Ythjall found himself staring into the eyes of a neurosurgeon who told him point-blank: “Your wife will be paralyzed, neck down, for life.”
At the time, Pavel had a broken neck, too. His vertebrae were supported by a halo screwed directly into his skull. A tragic accident on the way to a Christmas party had changed their lives forever.
They had no family to help them. The doctor predicted Kat would find a way to kill herself, despite the paralysis. As reality sank in, everyone thought Pavel would leave her. But he was their only hope of discovering a new way to move forward — together.
A beautiful, heart-wrenching story of trauma, love, grace, and the ultimate meaning of life, True Love and Suffering was born from the global movement around Pavel and Kat’s incredible journey. Join thousands around the world who have discovered their own strength, resilience, and hope for true love through the inspiring lives of these two heroes.
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- Linda S.
- 09-25-22
Respect for both Kat and Pavel
This is someone’s story and reads as a therapeutic experience for the author. Unfortunately doesn’t necessarily make it a good listen or story. Absolutely tragic what happened to this couple. The telling of the story, however was a bit chaotic and hard to follow for 3/4 of the book. This is probably not what the author wants to hear but listening to this story confirms that if I were ever to sustain a high cervical spinal cord injury I would absolutely not want to be treated to sustain life. I will be having a serious conversation with my husband and kids about this as a result of finishing this story. To be fair and up front, as a PT in an acute rehab facility, this choice is not really new for me. I have never been afraid of dying, living with chronic conditions is so much worse. I’ll take the easy way out. I wouldn’t really recommend this book to anyone I know. I listened vs read it and performance wise, I think it would have been better if Pavel narrated the book.
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- Quetza
- 12-06-22
If you're in a rut about your life read this book.
Inspirational and soul reviving. A reminder that true love still exists. That true love stays and fights.
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