Waiting for First Light Audiobook By Romeo Dallaire, Jessica Dee Humphreys - contributor cover art

Waiting for First Light

My Ongoing Battle with PTSD

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Waiting for First Light

By: Romeo Dallaire, Jessica Dee Humphreys - contributor
Narrated by: Paul Gross
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Longlisted for the RBC Taylor Prize: In this piercing memoir, Roméo Dallaire, retired general and former senator, the author of the bestsellers Shake Hands with the Devil and They Fight Like Soldiers, They Die Like Children, and one of the world's leading humanitarians, delves deep into his life since the Rwandan genocide.

At the heart of Waiting for First Light is a no-holds-barred self-portrait of a top political and military figure whose nights are invaded by despair, but who at first light faces the day with the renewed desire to make a difference in the world.

Roméo Dallaire, traumatized by witnessing genocide on an imponderable scale in Rwanda, reflects in this book on the nature of PTSD and the impact of that deep wound on his life since 1994, and on how he motivates himself and others to humanitarian work despite his constant struggle. Though he had been a leader in peace and in war at all levels up to deputy commander of the Canadian Army, his PTSD led to his medical dismissal from the Canadian Forces in April 2000, a blow that almost killed him. But he crawled out of the hole he fell into after he had to take off the uniform, and he has been inspiring people to give their all to multiple missions ever since, from ending genocide to eradicating the use of child soldiers to revolutionizing officer training so that our soldiers can better deal with the muddy reality of modern conflict zones and to revolutionizing our thinking about the changing nature of conflict itself.

His new book is as compelling and original an account of suffering and endurance as Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking and William Styron's Darkness Visible.

©2016 Romeo A. Dallaire, LGen (ret) Inc. (P)2023 Random House Canada
Mental Health Military & War Post-Traumatic Stress Disorders Psychology Psychology & Mental Health Military War
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Longlisted for the 2017 RBC Taylor Prize

“[A]n important look at the plight of returning soldiers. . . . Dallaire’s work adds to a growing understanding of the special challenges and traumas faced by peacekeepers. . . . While the average person might not be inclined to read clinical literature, Dallaire offers something more: an honest, firsthand account—and from a general, no less.”—National Post

“Dallaire reveals an intriguing oxymoron: a poetic general; a soulful warrior.”—The Globe and Mail

“[E]xtraordinary book. . . . There is light in Waiting for First Light.”—Carol Off, CBC

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