She was 13 when they told her she had ADD.

So they gave her Ritalin.

That turned into coke.

Then meth.

But the real problem?

It was never focus.

It was dissociation.

Disconnection.

A nervous system stuck in survival.

In this raw, unfiltered conversation, Selden Beylouni opens up about her journey from diagnosis to addiction to something even rarer… authenticity.

We talk stimulants, freeze states, functional dissociation and the brutal beauty of finally landing in your body.

If you’ve ever been told you have ADD…

If stimulants helped you function but left you feeling hollow…

If something’s always felt off and you’ve never had the words for it...

This episode will name it.

And maybe, for the first time, make it make sense.

In This Episode with Selden Beylouni, You'll Discover:

• Why Ritalin worked so well… and why that was the most dangerous part
• What it really means when you can’t feel your feet
• How functional freeze hides behind high achievement
• The unspoken grief of breaking up with the drugs that saved you
• Why “ADD” isn’t a diagnosis - it’s a disguise
• The difference between spiritual floatiness and true embodiment - and why it matters more than you think
• Why she doesn’t need Ritalin anymore - and what she uses instead

Lisa thought she had it all handled. A career. A family. Four kids. A clean bill of mental health.

Then her face exploded.

Swollen. Red. Unrecognizable. Her body was screaming what her brain refused to admit:

She was not fine.

This wasn’t burnout. It wasn’t stress. It was decades of survival-mode living catching up with a vengeance.

In this episode, we unpack the meltdown – and the somatic awakening that followed.

Forget mindset. Forget therapy. This is the raw, real story of what happens when your nervous system finally says: Enough.

If you’ve tried everything and nothing sticks – listen to this.

In This Episode with Lisa Loiseau, You’ll Discover:

• The hidden danger of healing too fast
• How she unknowingly lived in freeze for years
• Why awareness is the first – and most dangerous – step
• How tiny movements rewired her nervous system
• The 4-step model that saved her sanity (and skin)
• The power of doing less (but doing it in your body)
• Why this work isn’t for everyone – and who should not do it
• The moment she realized she’d been in denial for decades
• How she used to think she was “just tired”
• What she teaches now – and why it’s nothing like therapy

Links From The Episode:

• The Rageheart Email Newsletter
• The Rageheart Academy
• Lisa’s website
• Irene Lyon
• Irene Lyon’s Scientuitive Practitioner Training
• Lisa’s Therapeutic Movement Classes
• Somatic Experiencing
• Sympathetic Nervous System
• Lisa’s PAIN model explained
• Sophie Fletcher
• Irene Lyon’s 21 Day Nervous System Tune-Up
• Irene Lyon’s Smart Body Smart Mind
• Seth Lyon on reclaiming your life-force

You feel fine.

You handle your shit.

You make money. You lift. You “do the work.”

So why does life still feel like a fucking flatline?

In this episode, Mitch Webb and I rip the lid off a truth most men will die never knowing:

You’re not broken.

You’re not lazy.

You’re not unmotivated.

You’re frozen.

Stuck in a state where everything feels… muted. Dull. Like you’re watching your life through a dirty fish tank.

And because you’ve been that way for years – maybe decades – you think it’s just who you are.

It’s not.

It’s your nervous system.

And once you learn how to work with it — not bypass it, hack it, or think your way around it — you can come back online. Feel again. Want again. Live again.

But only if you’re ready to face the truth that mindset, meditation, and microdosing alone won’t save you.

In This Episode with Mitch Webb, You’ll Discover:

• The brutal myth that’s kept you stuck: “Maybe this is just how I am”
• The frozen prison you never knew you were in (until now)
• Why you’ve been trying to shit into a toilet that’s been blocked for 30 years
• The real reason ice baths, breathwork, and affirmations always wear off
• Why numbness isn’t weakness — it’s your nervous system screaming for help
• What “emotional deadlifts” taught Mitch about feeling everything again
• Why chasing peak states is just a high-class way to stay stuck
• How to finally feel alive again — without journaling your trauma or meditating it away