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This Was Always Me

This Was Always Me

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Rich Clarke spent years feeling ashamed of his sexuality. Now he meets others who, for many different reasons, kept theirs hidden - and asks why. From Olympic icon Dame Kelly Holmes to a Zimbabwean refugee and a former Conservative MP, these are unflinching stories of secrecy, shame, and survival. Forget the rainbow-washed headlines... coming out isn't always safe, or even possible. Across 12 gripping episodes, Rich explores the emotional cost of hiding who you are, and what it takes to finally live your truth. Raw, heartfelt, and long overdue. These voices are done hiding. 🎧 Subscribe now on Global Player or wherever you get your podcasts. 💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com 📢 For advertising opportunities, contact: dax@global.comCopyright 2025 Global Hygiene & Healthy Living Psychology Psychology & Mental Health Social Sciences
Episodes
  • Decades of Silence: Norman Goodman on surviving aversion therapy & embracing his bisexual identity in his 70s
    Jul 7 2025

    Norman Goodman knew he was different from a young age. But it was seen as a mental illness. He faced aversion therapy and electroconvulsive therapy to ‘cure’ his feelings. For decades, Norman hid his bisexuality, even from himself, and lived a life as a husband and nurse.

    It wasn’t until after his wife Marilyn passed away that Norman found the courage to come out publicly. Now in a loving relationship, Norman shares how embracing his true self brought peace... and why telling his story matters for other older LGBTQ+ people still in the shadows.

    Norman speaks with Rich Clarke about decades of silence, mental health struggles, and finally living openly.

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    SUPPORT SERVICES

    LGBTQ+ Support

    Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

    • A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.

    • Phone: 0800 0119 100

    • Website: switchboard.lgbt

    Stonewall

    • Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.

    • Website: stonewall.org.uk

    Open Table Network

    • Phone: 07501753618

    • Website: opentable.lgbt

    Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

    Samaritans

    • For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.

    • Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)

    • Website: samaritans.org

    Mind

    • Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.

    • Phone: 0300 123 3393

    • Website: mind.org.uk

    PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

    • Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.

    •Phone: 0800 068 41 41

    • Website: papyrus-uk.org

    Shout

    •A free, confidential mental health text support service.

    • Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)

    • Website: giveusashout.org

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    46 mins
  • From Arranged Marriage & Exorcism to Activism: Moud Goba on escaping Zimbabwe and starting over
    Jun 30 2025

    Moud Goba speaks to Rich Clarke about her journey from silence to pride. Growing up in Robert Mugabe’s Zimbabwe, she was taught that being gay was sinful, criminal, and impossible. She faced exorcism, was pushed into an arranged marriage, and eventually fled - leaving her home and family behind.

    But her fight for freedom didn’t end in the UK. Seeking asylum meant proving her sexuality, living in poverty, and hiding once again... this time in plain sight.

    Today, Moud is a mother, a leading LGBTQI+ activist, Chair of UK Black Pride, and National Director at Micro Rainbow - helping others build the safe, free life she once only dreamed of.

    📱 Follow us on Instagram and TikTok: @alwaysmepodcast

    💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com

    SUPPORT SERVICES

    LGBTQ+ Support

    Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

    • A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.

    • Phone: 0800 0119 100

    • Website: switchboard.lgbt

    Stonewall

    • Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.

    • Website: stonewall.org.uk

    Open Table Network

    • Phone: 07501753618

    • Website: opentable.lgbt

    Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

    Samaritans

    • For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.

    • Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)

    • Website: samaritans.org

    Mind

    • Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.

    • Phone: 0300 123 3393

    • Website: mind.org.uk

    PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

    • Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.

    •Phone: 0800 068 41 41

    • Website: papyrus-uk.org

    Shout

    •A free, confidential mental health text support service.

    • Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)

    • Website: giveusashout.org

    Show more Show less
    52 mins
  • A Love Hidden For 29 Years: Former Conservative MP Sir Nick Gibb and Michael Simmonds on fear, love and coming out in politics
    Jun 23 2025

    Sir Nick Gibb and Michael Simmonds have been together for 38 years, but kept their relationship hidden from the world until 2015 - the year they married.

    Nick knew he was gay from university and accepted it, but as a Conservative MP, he felt he had to keep his personal life private to protect his career.

    For decades, they lived together but kept up appearances - even owning separate properties and spending holidays apart to avoid suspicion.

    In this honest and moving conversation with Rich Clarke, they reflect on the long years of secrecy, the toll it took, and the joy and relief of finally sharing their truth with the world.

    This is a story of quiet love, public pressure, and finally, freedom.

    📱 Follow us on Instagram and TikTok: @alwaysmepodcast

    💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com

    SUPPORT SERVICES

    LGBTQ+ Support

    Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

    • A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.

    • Phone: 0800 0119 100

    • Website: switchboard.lgbt

    Stonewall

    • Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.

    • Website: stonewall.org.uk

    Open Table Network

    • Phone: 07501753618

    • Website: opentable.lgbt

    Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

    Samaritans

    • For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.

    • Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)

    • Website: samaritans.org

    Mind

    • Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.

    • Phone: 0300 123 3393

    • Website: mind.org.uk

    PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

    • Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.

    •Phone: 0800 068 41 41

    • Website: papyrus-uk.org

    Shout

    •A free, confidential mental health text support service.

    • Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)

    • Website: giveusashout.org

    Show more Show less
    50 mins
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