Richard Martin joins Rich Clarke to share the story of a love that shaped his life.

At university, Richard fell deeply in love with another man. It was a relationship full of hope, but lived in secrecy at a time when being gay was illegal. When his partner returned to America, Richard stayed behind and tried to move on. Years later, they saw each other again, both married to women, and the meeting was painfully strange.

Richard went on to to live a life of marriage, children, and silence. But in his 60s, he finally came out.

This is a story of first love, quiet heartbreak, and finally becoming who you really are.

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💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com

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Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

• A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.
• Phone: 0800 0119 100
• Website: switchboard.lgbt

Stonewall

• Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.
• Website: stonewall.org.uk

Open Table Network

• Phone: 07501753618
• Website: opentable.lgbt

Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

Samaritans

• For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.
• Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)
• Website: samaritans.org

Mind

• Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.
• Phone: 0300 123 3393
• Website: mind.org.uk

PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

• Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.
• Phone: 0800 068 41 41
• Website: papyrus-uk.org

Shout

• A free, confidential mental health text support service.
• Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)
• Website: giveusashout.org

Rich Clarke sits down with Isobel - a remarkable trans woman who underwent gender-affirming surgery at 80.

Isobel reflects on a lifetime of hiding her true self, trying to meet the expectations of others as a sailor, firefighter, husband, and father. With honesty and warmth, she shares how her wife Margaret, now living with dementia, offered her the support and permission to finally live as herself.

Now, two years after surgery, Isobel describes the profound joy and peace she’s found in her body. She talks about identity, love, family, and the courage it takes to become who you really are... at any age.

This is a powerful story of truth, transformation, and the freedom that comes with finally being seen.

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💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com

SUPPORT SERVICES

LGBTQ+ Support

Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

• A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.
• Phone: 0800 0119 100
• Website: switchboard.lgbt

Stonewall

• Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.
• Website: stonewall.org.uk

Open Table Network

• Phone: 07501753618
• Website: opentable.lgbt

Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

Samaritans

• For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.
• Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)
• Website: samaritans.org

Mind

• Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.
• Phone: 0300 123 3393
• Website: mind.org.uk

PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

• Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.
• Phone: 0800 068 41 41
• Website: papyrus-uk.org

Shout

• A free, confidential mental health text support service.
• Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)
• Website: giveusashout.org

Rich Clarke speaks with Dame Kelly Holmes, double Olympic gold medallist, former soldier, and proud gay woman, about the reality of hiding her sexuality for 34 years.

Kelly reflects on her time in the British Army, when being gay was still illegal, and the constant fear of discovery. She opens up about the emotional toll of living in silence, the pressure of public life, and the lasting impact on her mental health.

She also discusses survivor’s guilt... the belief that if she’d been discharged for being gay, she might never have become an Olympic champion... and the inner conflict of being celebrated while concealing such a significant part of her identity.

This is a conversation about fear, identity, and the unseen weight of silence

📱 Follow us on Instagram and TikTok: @alwaysmepodcast

💬 To share your story, email: alwaysme@global.com

SUPPORT SERVICES

LGBTQ+ Support

Switchboard – LGBTQ+ Helpline

• A confidential helpline for LGBTQ+ people to talk about sexuality, gender identity, and more.
• Phone: 0800 0119 100
• Website: switchboard.lgbt

Stonewall

• Offers support and resources for LGBTQ+ individuals and their families.
• Website: stonewall.org.uk

Open Table Network

• Phone: 07501753618
• Website: opentable.lgbt

Mental Health & Suicide Prevention

Samaritans

• For anyone in distress, struggling to cope, or at risk of suicide.
• Phone: 116 123 (Free, 24/7)
• Website: samaritans.org

Mind

• Provides advice and support for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.
• Phone: 0300 123 3393
• Website: mind.org.uk

PAPYRUS – Prevention of Young Suicide

• Support for people under 35 experiencing suicidal thoughts, and for those concerned about someone else.
• Phone: 0800 068 41 41
• Website: papyrus-uk.org

Shout

• A free, confidential mental health text support service.
• Text: SHOUT to 85258 (24/7, free text service)
• Website: giveusashout.org

What if being yourself meant risking everything?

This Was Always Me is a powerful new series hosted by Rich Clarke, launching this Pride Month. Through raw, emotional conversations, it shares the untold stories of people who felt they had to hide their sexuality or gender identity - sometimes for years.

From a former Conservative MP to a Zimbabwean refugee, each episode explores the complex reasons people stay silent including religion, politics, family, and personal safety. These are real stories of secrecy, shame, and the strength it takes to finally live your truth.

If you're looking for a Pride Month podcast that goes beyond the headlines, diving into identity, mental health, and the cost of hiding who you are, This Was Always Me is the one to hear.

🎧 The first three episodes drop Monday 9th June, including a conversation with Dame Kelly Holmes.

Available on Global Player or wherever you get your podcasts.

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