
Dictates of Conscience
From Mormon High Priest to My New Life as a Woman
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Laurie Lee Hall
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Laurie Lee Hall
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Laurie Lee Hall’s growing-up years were defined by the conflict between her physical condition as a boy and her inherent identity as a girl. Unable to explain or resolve her gender dysphoria, she committed to living her adult life as a male. She joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, eventually becoming chief architect of its temples and an ecclesiastical leader. In her church and community, rigid adherence to gender roles is not only the norm, but the defining issue of a faith that doctrinally declares one’s gender as an “eternal identity.” Against this traditional backdrop, Hall finally received spiritual confirmation and personally accepted that she was transgender and always had been. In this remarkable memoir, Laurie Lee details how she risked everything to live true to her long-suppressed gender identity.
Through the power of lived experience, Laurie Lee’s story affirms the reality of gender identity and the strength and joy of self-acceptance.
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A real life account of the experience of a high ranking Mormon who comes out as transgender.
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It truly was a page turner I couldn't put down! I'd wanted this title since I first heard her do a few interviews. I was so excited to finally hear that it was now available in audio form, so I had to get it! i started listening while out on a run. She had me pulling for her throughout the stories she shared as a young boy growing up in a dysfunctional home, society and all. From their family separating from church's where things weren't right to school experiences where she was fighting not just the rights of one gender but for equality for all. To finding the LDS faith and actively working inside it to make everyone feel of worth and important. Having to hide who she truly was for decades. Laurie Lee Hall and a few others within the pages of this story truly encompass how I feel God would truly have us function within our every day lives by following God's promptings instead of Man's policies and procedures. Laurie Lee Hall truly has a way with words. I found this story one in which I could cry and cheer along with her from page one. She truly is an inspiration. While I don't know if I'll ever do it, but reading this once again made me want to tell my life story. I hope you keep writing and sharing your story! I'd love a follow up or more than one sequel to this book! I went out for a run and instead of putting it down immediately after I was done kept listening for hours after the fact. I'll probably even go back and listen again and again!
A page turner I couldn't put down!
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