
Everyone but Myself
A Memoir
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Julie Chavez
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Julie Chavez
About this listen
Like so many mothers, Julie Chavez ran herself ragged trying to meet the needs of everyone else, until an unexpected panic attack forced her to find a new way. Funny, deeply honest, and inspiring for listeners feeling overwhelmed in their own lives, Everyone But Myself feels like a best friend sharing how she pulled herself back to solid ground while embracing chaos along the way.
"In my experience, the phrase 'all of a sudden' is rarely applicable when it comes to mental health."
For Chavez, an elementary school librarian and mother of two boys, the signs of mounting anxiety and depression had been present for a while, though she had done her very best to ignore them. Then, one night, while her husband was away on business, Julie found herself locked in a debilitating panic attack that threw her life into a tailspin. The terrifying aftershocks left her grappling with questions about the origin of her anxiety and where it would lead next.
What follows is a funny, unflinchingly open account of love and loss, comically negligent doctors, husbands who can't read minds, family outings gone wrong, and the life-affirming joy of a life well loved and well lived.
Written with humor and hope, and sure to resonate with mothers spread thin by the demands of modern family life, Everyone But Myself offers an intimate portrait of how one woman found her way back from the edge.
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- Bianca Moreno
- 04-11-24
Relatable but not…
As a mom and a woman who does everything for everyone, I get it, but there were many parts that I just couldn’t relate to
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- Maureen A. Gilmartin
- 01-26-24
Very relatable
A must read for burnt out humans. Julie Chaves is very relatable. I may have teared up a few times listening because I related to her story. I even bought the book to have on hand.
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- Elaine in Atlanta
- 01-16-24
Julie told my story!
I totally enjoyed the book. It was well written with great insight into self care and mental health issues with the message of hope and healing. I think many of us have gone through similar struggles during the time with small children and trying to do it all perfectly.
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- Lauren
- 01-21-24
Raw and honest
So relatable as a mom, daughter and friend trying to find balance and feel like we’re doing a good job.
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- Elizabeth J.
- 01-16-24
Must read for any mom or care giver!!!
Being a mom in this day and age is hard. Finding balance and ourselves is a quest. And Julie masterfully documents hers and shares it with all of us.
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