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Amy Silverberg
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Amy Silverberg
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For fans of Emma Cline and Melissa Broder, the story of an untethered, sardonic young woman falling for an older radio host… and then for his daughter.
When aspiring writer Allison moved to L.A., she expected her life to finally take shape. After years of dwelling in grief over her brother's unexpected and untimely death and allowing her mercurial parents' feelings and desires to infect her own, she feels ready become the main character in her own story again. Yet Allison continues to feel inextricably tied to both her parents, particularly her unpredictable father, and weighed down by her the loss of her brother. In L.A., as with anywhere else, she feels lonely and adrift, unable to write and barely scraping by as an English teacher.
After a serendipitous run in with famed radio DJ Reid Steinman, an idol of her father’s and her late brother’s, Allison is rapidly drawn under his spell, while also developing an unanticipated, tangled relationship with his adult daughter, Maddie. She’s forced to balance her romance with Reid with her gnawing desire for the intoxicatingly charming Maddie, as it becomes increasingly evident that she and Allison's late brother share more than a few qualities. As Allison's relationships with the equally self-possessed father and daughter deepens, she struggles to establish the boundaries of her own identity.
Through candid self-awareness, keen observations, and deliciously wry humor, First Time, Long Time asks, what happens to a young woman’s goals when she becomes involved with a famous man whose needs seem so much louder than her own? And how might she move forward when so much in her past remains unresolved?
©2025 Amy Silverberg (P)2025 Grand Central PublishingCritic reviews
“Amy Silverberg’s First Time, Long Time is not only funny, smart, and tender, it’s also so sneakily well-written that you’ll be tempted to stop to admire a cool turn-of-phrase instead of plowing through to figure out how her f-ed up heroine gets herself out of the mess she’s made for herself. Read it slow or fast—either way, you’ll have a great time."—Michael Ian Black, comedian and bestselling author
“I didn’t feel like I was reading this amazing book so much as getting to hang out with it every time I picked it up, relaxing into the voice which I savored on every page. Silverberg is a writer’s writer, rewarding us all the time with fresh phrasing that nails an emotional experience, but she’s also a person’s person—open, curious, wrestling with what might be true. A thrilling debut."—Aimee Bender, author of The Butterfly Lampshade and The Color Master
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