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I Swear I'll Make It Up to You
- A Life on the Low Road
- Narrated by: Mishka Shubaly
- Length: 13 hrs and 35 mins
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An odyssey of family, heartbreak, violence, punk rock, brokenness, broke-ness, sex, love, loss, drinking, drinking, drinking, and an unlikely savior: distance running.
A misfit kid at the best of times, Mishka Shubaly had his world shattered when, in a 24-hour span in 1992, he survived a mass shooting on his school's campus then learned that his parents were getting divorced. His father, a prominent rocket scientist, abandoned the family, and their home was lost to foreclosure. Shubaly swore to avenge the wrongs against his mother but instead plunged into a magnificently toxic love affair with alcohol.
Almost two decades later, Shubaly's life changed again when a fateful five-mile run after a bar fight inspired him to clean up his life. And when he finally reconnected with his estranged father, he discovered the story of his childhood was radically different from what he thought he knew.
In this fiercely honest, emotional, and self-laceratingly witty book, Shubaly relives his mistakes, misfortunes, and infrequent good decisions: the disastrous events that fractured his life; his incendiary romances; his hot-and-cold career as a rock musician; meeting his newborn nephew while out of his gourd on cough syrup. I Swear I'll Make It Up to You is an apology for choices Shubaly never thought he'd live long enough to regret, a journey so far down the low road that it took him years of running to claw his way back.
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Born into the beautiful bedlam of downtown New York in the eighties, iO Tillett Wright came of age at the intersection of punk, poverty, heroin, and art. This was a world of self-invented characters, glamorous superstars, and strung-out sufferers, ground zero of drag and performance art. Still, no personality was more vibrant and formidable than iO's mother's. Rhonna, a showgirl and young widow, was a mercurial, erratic glamazon. She was iO's fiercest defender and only authority in a world with few boundaries and even fewer indicators of normal life.
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Can’t wait for more from this Author!
- By Team Hobson on 07-24-19
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Marrow
- By: Tarryn Fisher
- Narrated by: Audra Pagano
- Length: 10 hrs and 7 mins
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Margo is not like other girls. She lives in a derelict neighborhood called the Bone, in a cursed house, with her cursed mother, who hasn't spoken to her in over two years. She lives her days feeling invisible. It's not until she develops a friendship with her wheelchair-bound neighbor, Judah Grant, that things begin to change. When a neighborhood girl, seven-year-old Neveah Anthony, goes missing, Judah sets out to help Margo uncover what happened to her. What Margo finds changes her, and with a new perspective on life she's determined to find evil and punish it.
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HUH?? I'm so confused LOL
- By ❤️Cyndi Marie❤️🎧Audiobook Addicts🎧 on 09-15-16
By: Tarryn Fisher
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If I am Missing or Dead
- A Sister's Story of Love, Murder, and Liberation
- By: Janine Latus
- Narrated by: Shelly Frasier
- Length: 8 hrs and 53 mins
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In April 2002, Janine Latus' youngest sister, Amy, wrote a note and taped it to the inside of her desk drawer. "Today Ron Ball and I are romantically involved", it read, "but I fear I have placed myself at risk in a variety of ways. Based on his criminal past, writing this out just seems like the smart thing to do. If I am missing or dead this obviously has not protected me...."
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All About Janine
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By: Janine Latus
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Digging Up Mother
- A Love Story
- By: Johnny Depp - foreword, Doug Stanhope
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Doug Stanhope is one of the most critically acclaimed and stridently unrepentant comedians of his generation. What will surprise some is that he owes so much of his dark and sometimes uncomfortably honest sense of humor to his mother, Bonnie.
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Not my thing.
- By J. Harral on 01-27-18
By: Johnny Depp - foreword, and others
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Marlena
- A Novel
- By: Julie Buntin
- Narrated by: Emma Galvin
- Length: 9 hrs and 38 mins
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Everything about 15-year-old Cat's new town in rural Michigan is lonely and off-kilter until she meets her neighbor, the manic, beautiful, pill-popping Marlena. Cat, inexperienced and desperate for connection, is quickly lured into Marlena's orbit by little more than an arched eyebrow and a shake of white-blond hair. As the two girls turn the untamed landscape of their desolate small town into a kind of playground, Cat catalogues a litany of firsts - first drink, first cigarette, first kiss - while Marlena's habits harden and calcify.
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A Brilliant, Agonizing Portrait of a Young Woman
- By Sudi on 06-06-17
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The Source of All Things
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A loving and devoted step-father, Donnie introduced Tracy Ross's family to the joys of fishing, deer hunting, camping, and hiking among the pristine mountains of rural Idaho. Donnie was everything Tracy dreamed a dad would be: protective, brave, and kind. But when his dependence on his eight-year-old daughter's companionship went too far, everything changed.
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Brave Woman
- By Ray Stewart on 06-23-24
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Chelsea Girls
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In this breathtakingly inventive autobiographical novel, Eileen Myles transforms life into a work of art. Told in her audacious voice, made vivid and immediate in her lyrical language, Chelsea Girls cobbles together memories of Myles's 1960s Catholic upbringing with an alcoholic father, her volatile adolescence, her unabashed "lesbianity," and her riotous pursuit of survival as a poet in 1970s New York.
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fascinatingly skanky
- By Megon J. Walker on 07-15-16
By: Eileen Myles
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A Bad Idea I'm About to Do
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- By: Chris Gethard
- Narrated by: Chris Gethard
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Chris Gethard has often found himself in awkward situations most people, including you, probably would have safely avoided. The good news is now, thanks to this book, you can enjoy the painfully funny consequences of his unfortunate decisions at a safe distance. A Bad Idea I'm About to Do invites listeners to join Chris as he navigates an adolescence and adulthood mired in hilariously ill-fated nerdom, and to take comfort in the fact that - as his experiences often prove - things could always be much, much worse.
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Loved it!!!
- By Amber G on 10-02-20
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Lit
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- By: Mary Karr
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Lit follows Mary Karr's descent into the inferno of alcoholism and madness - and her astonishing resurrection. Karr's longing for a solid family seems secure when her marriage to a handsome, Shakespeare-quoting poet produces a son they adore. But she can't outrun her apocalyptic past. She drinks herself into the same numbness that nearly devoured her charismatic but troubled mother, reaching the brink of suicide. A hair-raising stint in "The Mental Marriott" awakens her to the possibility of joy, and leads her to an unlikely faith.
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Finally! One for the "Win" column
- By Kim on 03-22-10
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I'm the One That I Want
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I'm the One That I Want, based on her show of the same name, is filled with dead-on insights about the experience of being a woman with attitude, of flowing with the highs and lows of life, and of creating one's own identity and acceptance. It is every bit as hilarious, shocking, and irreverent as she is.
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Hilarious and deeply engrossing
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By: Margaret Cho
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God-Shaped Hole
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When Beatrice Trixie Jordan replies to a personal ad, she meets Jacob Grace, a charming, effervescent 30-something free-spirit writer passionately seeking life. He possesses his own turns of phrase and ways of thinking and feeling that dissonantly harmonize with Trixie's off-center vision. As they rollercoaster through the joys and furies of their wrenching romance, they try to come to terms with the hurt brought about by both of their distant fathers who, in different ways, forsook them.
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To see a fortune teller or not to see one...
- By Renee on 08-08-18
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The Art of Starving
- By: Sam J. Miller
- Narrated by: Tom Phelan
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Matt hasn't eaten in days. His stomach stabs and twists inside, pleading for a meal, but Matt won't give in. The hunger clears his mind, keeps him sharp - and he needs to be as sharp as possible if he's going to find out just how Tariq and his band of high school bullies drove his sister, Maya, away. Matt's hardworking mom keeps the kitchen crammed with food, but Matt can resist the siren call of casseroles and cookies because he has discovered something: the less he eats the more he seems to have...powers.
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Transformative book!
- By Uno Person on 01-01-20
By: Sam J. Miller
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- Gary
- 07-19-17
Mishka is a man of many talents.
Loved it. Great musician,writer and runner. Wasn't expecting it to be as good as it was. Blew me away!
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- Sandra Bell
- 02-09-17
A hard road
It was a very hard life that was so negative but came out on the other side. Listening to the author was sometimes hard. He had thought he was worse than he actually was and how much he disliked himself amazing turn around. I was glad it happened for him. I could relate, I was married to person that drank a lot but he would become nasty when he drank anything harder than beer. I became a runner for my own sanity at 38 it was hard but the furthest I ever went was a marathon. I ran into my 60s but now I only do a little on treadmill. I did like this story a lot and could really relate.
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- Lynne Humphrey
- 11-26-21
Great read!
Loved Mishka's honesty and transparency. He is funny, insightful, and inspirational. Worth the 13.35 hrs listen!
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- Anonymous User
- 12-21-20
Amazing, heartfelt, & completely relatable
Mishka’s book is amazing! I listened to Cold Turkey awhile back, but this one knocks it out of the water!!! His writing is amazing and his deep voice is sexy! His story is a great one, as an addict myself, and one who is a member of a 12-step program, I truly appreciate hearing other ways someone got clean and/or sober. He’s right about how AA and NA want everyone to believe they have the monopolized answer, and although it has been the answer for me, I have always known it’s not for everyone. Thanks for sharing your story with Mishka and I can’t help but want to go for a run after listening!!!
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- Cigarfan
- 10-02-16
Great
A huge THANK YOU to Mr Shubaly for writing such a memorable memoir. A painful look in the mirror for a broken soul. I'm certain it will be relatable for many. It will leave you hopeful.
P.S. Thanks to Doug Stanhope for turning me on to Mishka's music.
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- Thomas Hamre
- 06-14-18
Astonishing told, a heartwarming story
I had read Mishka Shubaly’s Amazon Single ‘The Long Run,’ and I wanted to hear a longer narrative of the events from there and also what happened after ‘The Long Run’ ended.
The audiobook was perfect for me, especially as the first half of the book is pretty bleak, as most addiction memoirs often are. So to listen to it while walking, in my case around green spaces near where I live, made it somewhat easier. And the last four or five chapters are as uplifting as the beginning of the book can take you to a bleaker place.
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- Wendy Cobb
- 10-30-21
Brutally Beautiful
This is such an excellent listen!! I came across Mishka several years ago on a Rich Roll episode, and he was one of those guests that really got through to me. I was a year or so into sobriety, being saved by cycling and running, and enthralled by those having similar stories that they were able to put into words. I hadn't paid much attention since, except reading a couple of posts and catching a couple episodes of his podcast, although always touched by them. I love to read and really enjoy memoirs and finally started using audible so I could more often. I'm so glad I finally got to this one. Such an incredibly painful and yet inspiring story for me. And best to have heard in his own voice. This has left so many feelings and thoughts stirred up in me, the heaviest one being the much needed reminder that the years at war with myself made me powerful beyond measure and capable of any challenge I fully throw myself into. Major gratitude to Mishka and everyone else actively apologizing to themselves and encouraging others.
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- Sandi Black
- 08-31-20
exceptional book !! Highly recommend.
Was a wonderful gripping story right from the beginning. Related very much. Keep writing!!sandiblack47@gmail....love it.
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- Katy Hanrahan
- 07-08-21
Got lucky on this one.....
Had no expectation when choosing this. I always find it hard to start a new book after finishing one. Especially one that was particularly captivating. I’ve started to not read any info about a book before choosing and it really paid off with this one. I was taken in right away and could not wait to continue in the journey with Mishka. The story was so honest and real and yes “inspirational” (sorry, wasn’t looking for that but, alas it motivated me..... might even take a super long walk tomorrow!). Hope you also find this book and enjoy it as much as I did!
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- Tabetha
- 12-01-20
Great listen!
I really enjoyed the audio book, glad it worked out!
Life happens, very candid story.
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