
Loving and Losing You, Azaylia
My Inspirational Daughter and Our Unbreakable Bond
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Safiyya Vorajee
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Safiyya Vorajee
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What the world saw, and what it didn't.
Nothing could ever have prepared me for this. Some days it breaks me, and I can't even bear to do it. I always thought I was tough, but it brings me to my knees every single time.
Safiyya's beautiful baby daughter, Azaylia, was eight weeks old when she was diagnosed with leukaemia. By the age of eight months, Safiyya and her partner, Ashley, had to say their final goodbye.
This is Safiyya's account of motherhood, hope and loss. It is about the unbreakable and incomparable bond between mother and daughter...about what happens to a family when they face a life without the person that completed them, putting listeners in the shoes no parent wants to be in. But, above all, it's a celebration of a remarkable little life that showed spirit that no baby should have to and a family who loved and fought to hold onto every precious moment.
©2022 Safiyya Vorajee (P)2022 Penguin AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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