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Twenty years ago, one man's murderous rampage destroyed his own family . . . and devastated a community. Now the only survivor - his daughter - tells her story at last.
On April 14, 1989, for reasons still debated today, Mexican immigrant RamÓn Salcido went on a violent rampage in the idyllic Sonoma Valley wine country where he lived and worked. In the course of just two hours, he killed his wife, Angela, her two younger sisters, his mother-in-law, and the man with whom he suspected Angela was having an affair. He then slashed the throats of his three young daughters - four-year-old Sophia, three-year-old Carmina, and twenty-two-month-old Teresa - leaving them for dead in the county dump. A little more than a day later, the bodies of his daughters were discovered. Miraculously, tiny Carmina was still alive and able to tell her rescuers, "My daddy cut me."
In Not Lost Forever, Carmina Salcido explores the events surrounding these headline-making murders with extraordinary clarity and composure. Reaching back to understand the events that traumatized her in childhood - and weaving them together with the recollections of detectives and witnesses - she reconstructs the story of her father's crimes, and their aftermath, in sobering detail.
Yet Carmina's story doesn't end there. Those who remember her as the tiny victim of these murders will also be shocked by what followed: how she was adopted by a Catholic extremist family who tried to change her name and bury her past; how she tried to escape their sheltering influence by joining a Carmelite convent and then a ranch for troubled girls; and how the psychological trials she endured along the way nearly broke her spirit - until, at last, she found peace by turning to the one relative still alive to share her grief: her grandfather.
As a young woman, Carmina returned to California to share her experiences and discover the family that was brutally taken from her. The devout Catholic also returned to look into her father's eyes on death row and confront the man who took away her entire family. With clear-eyed candor, courage, and grace, this brave young woman takes readers along on her miraculous journey of survival, discovery, and hope.
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- Rose
- 07-19-18
not lost forever
this book was awesome, heart felt, uplifting of survival of a young girl, I loved this book and recommend it to anyone.
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- Jett
- 05-10-23
Very sad and tragic story
This story was difficult to get through because it just continues to outrage you, how everyone in her life just failed her. The last update I could find on her was that she was struggling with addiction and had lost custody of her daughter. That monster calling himself her father and what he did continues to infiltrate her life. I hope someday she can prevail and find some happiness.
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- Star Anderson
- 11-26-23
Good Story
I would have given it a 5 for story if it had dealt a bit more with her thoughts rather than just the story.
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- Letitgo4u
- 03-22-16
Tragic story
The narrator kept putting a Mexican accent on victim's names and a creepy accent when she mimicked the murder which I found annoying. it's a decent audible that gave you insight into a little girl that was basically swallowed up by the system after surviving a horrific ordeal. I wish the best for the little lost girl who had so many adults turn their back on her.
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- Tammy
- 10-14-15
An extraordinary and moving story
An extraordinary and moving story about a very brave and strong girl. had me in tears at some points.
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- Marian
- 12-20-14
Page turner
One of the best books I have listened . I feel for carmine , may she find true happiness and peace .
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- Evonne Garza
- 03-20-17
Emotional, encouraging and yet sad
I saw Carmina's interview on Dateline and was so touched I had to see if she had written a book. You have touched and inspired so many with I saw Carmina's interview on Dateline and was so touched I had to see if she had written a book. God bless you Golden Dove. your fortitude to continue living despite so much pain and obstacles. Your book is very well written and I could not stop listening. The narrator also did an excellent job. God bless you Golden Dove. Please know you have a spiritual family who loves you and prays for your well being.
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- Anonymous User
- 04-10-23
Well Adjusted BADASS!
I hope that Carmina is proud of herself. She is phenomenal. The vulnerability required for her to share her story is more than I can comprehend. Yet, somehow she creates the space for me to do just that. She is an impeccable writer and her story is insane!
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- Tiger08
- 12-06-15
Carmina is the strongest person ever
This woman has endured and survived more than any 1000 people should ever have to confront. I hope she finds peace and someone to truly love her in the manner she deserves. Prayers for you, brave woman!
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- Karen McCreless
- 04-11-16
touching yet heartbreaking
I thought the narrator did a great job. The book queve in-depth review of what her life was like and what her dreams are. I pray she finds the happiness she seeks.
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