
The Adderall Diaries
A Memoir of Moods, Masochism, and Murder
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Jason Butler Harner
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Stephen Elliott
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In the spring of 2007, a brilliant computer programmer named Hans Reiser stands accused of murdering his estranged wife, Nina. Despite a mountain of circumstantial evidence against him, he proclaims his innocence. The case takes a twist when Nina’s former lover, and Hans’s former best friend, Sean Sturgeon, confesses to eight unrelated murders that no one has ever heard of. At the time of Sturgeon’s confession, Stephen Elliot is paralyzed by writer’s block, in the thrall of Adderall dependency, and despondent over the state of his romantic life. But he is fascinated by Sturgeon, whose path he has often crossed in San Francisco’s underground S&M scene. What kind of person, he wonders, confesses to a murder he likely did not commit? One answer is, perhaps, a man like Elliott’s own father.
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- Nate Cox
- 04-10-25
It’s called Adderall Diaries but Adderall is rarely mentioned
I was looking for an addiction memoir or even just a book about prescription medication abuse: this is neither. The author mentions that he takes 10mg of Adderall at times in the book and that’s it.
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- KellyEliza
- 08-14-15
Not for everyone!!!
If this book were a movie would you go see it?
It is and yes I plan to when it comes out.
Any additional comments?
This book is not for everyone. Once I got into the story I did enjoy it. This book gives an accurate portrayal of someone with ADD. It will talk about 1 thing then goes off in another direction, sometimes hard to keep track of the time period ur in. (Past or present)
As for the narrator, I think he too sounds like someone with ADD. Kind of drones on, but he is not hard to listen to or boring like u might think.
As for the sexual stuff in the book, it's kind of disturbing, but I think ties in well with this book.
In conclusion , not for everyone but worth a credit.
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- Laurance
- 04-02-13
Interesting book, though not for everyone
What did you love best about The Adderall Diaries?
I liked the view into a world I don't normally see, the author's clever connections and imagery, and his use of short, choppy passages, like one would expect from someone with ADD. I liked the story, but there was a lot left out and in the end it felt unfinished, like the author's life.
What three words best describe Jason Butler Harner’s voice?
Somewhat bored. Monotone. But I think he was trying to convey the deadened or numb feeling the author was trying to convey. The author writes with seen-it-all detachment, and I think the vocals were meant to portray that.
Any additional comments?
This is a reasonably good book and will read another by the author to see if he uses the same repeatitive themes, or whether he explores new ground.
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- Ashley
- 09-12-12
Absolutely terrible!
What could have made this a 4 or 5-star listening experience for you?
This book is terrible! My 7 yr could write a better book! So disappointed! I really should give no stars!
Would you ever listen to anything by Stephen Elliott again?
No
Who would you have cast as narrator instead of Jason Butler Harner?
No one
If you could play editor, what scene or scenes would you have cut from The Adderall Diaries?
Everyone
Any additional comments?
This book was just terrible!
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- Deborah R. Oriscak
- 04-16-17
Captivating
Thought provoking emotionally raw. Philosophical, introspective and self facing. avoids using excessively grapic depictions of abuse and sexual encounters for shock value.
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- Kopper
- 05-08-15
Not what I expected
Well I can say it wasn't what I expected maybe somebody's cuppa tea but just not mine you have a
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