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Zach Barack
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Mason Deaver
About this listen
From the bestselling author of I Wish You All the Best, comes a new kind of love story, about the bad decisions we sometimes make... and the people who help get us back on the right path.
Perfect for fans of Red, White, and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston and What If It's Us by Adam Silvera and Becky Albertalli.
Just days before spring break, Neil Kearney is set to fly across the country with his childhood friend (and current friend-with-benefits) Josh, to attend his brother's wedding—until Josh tells Neil that he's in love with him and Neil doesn't return the sentiment.
With Josh still attending the wedding, Neil needs to find a new date to bring along. And, almost against his will, roommate Wyatt is drafted.
At first, Wyatt (correctly) thinks Neil is acting like a jerk. But when they get to LA, Wyatt sees a little more of where it's coming from. Slowly, Neil and Wyatt begin to understand one another… and maybe, just maybe, fall in love for the first time…
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- Tracy
- 09-07-22
Simply beautiful
“To every trans person who believed they were too complicated for a love story” -Mason Deaver
That dedication sums it up perfectly. This book is simply beautiful the characters are so real and the story is simple but in the best way possible. The dialogue is amazing and watching Neil and Wyatt fall in love was everything.
Go read this book and all of their others because they are a wonderful author and storyteller!
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- jardar aasen
- 06-18-24
comfy and relatable
Nice book with trans representation warmed the heart of a nonbinary person relaterte feelingen of love and the Fearnley to fall in love
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- ShannonVM
- 05-21-23
Narration was terrific.
It's a sign of a great narrator when they're able to bring out so many emotions that make you want to smack a character upside their head. And I'm not a violent person. But man. Zach Barack did such an incredible job of bringing Neil's character to life that there were times I found myself wanting to give that kid a good talking to, what a spoiled little brat.
This is a case of I wonder if I would have enjoyed this book more if I had read it instead of listening to it, because Zach was just that good at making me not like Neil for a lot of the book.
I did end up really enjoying it though. I was happy with Neil's growth over the course of the book, although he does still have a ways to go. Wyatt was such a sweet cinnamon roll who balanced the feelings of frustration I had with Neil.
Zach was really terrific and really brought the character of Neil to life.
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- Jen Seavey
- 03-09-24
It drug up my trama but I still love it
This book brought back so many memories for me both good and bad because I know what it’s like trying to navigate the world and love as a queer teen
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