
The Reluctant Psychic
A Memoir
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Hillary Huber
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A gripping and unsettling portal into the life of a woman who lives in many worlds, some wildly far from and some eerily near to our own.
As children we all had our imaginary friends and monsters in the closet. But for Suzan Saxman, those friends and monsters didn't go away--and they weren't imaginary.
From an early age, Suzan knew instinctively that she had to hide her true self. She couldn't talk about the specters that haunted her, waking and dreaming. In bed with a childhood fever, rat-faced winged beings guarded her; bullied and friendless at school, she ate lunch silently under the steps of St. Theresa's with the ghost of a nun; paralyzed with fear, she woke each night to see a man with no eyes watching her; and she kept watch at the window every day while her daddy was at work and Steve, her real father, was with her mother. It was the 1960s in suburban Staten Island, and she tried to hide it, tried to silence the spirits, ghosts, and demons, tried to be a daughter her mother could love. Like many memoirs, Suzan's is the story of a mother and a daughter: of a mother who refused to accept both her strangely gifted daughter and her own personal buried secrets and of a daughter who grew more and more isolated as she floated adrift in a family to which she did not feel she belonged.
Now, with Perdita Finn, Suzan tells the story of her journey, revealing and celebrating both the joy and terror, the fulfillment and sadness of a life lived between worlds, the loneliness and power of seeing and understanding things no one else can.
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I couldnt put it down
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On my third listen
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Absolutely incredible!
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Great book
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interesting
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fascinating
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I cried more than a few times for the pain the hurt and the joy... Grateful for someone opening their life to share the raw pain and truth that is their reality.
I'd recommend this to people who like autobiography style books of people with psychic skill/gifts.
Held my attention the entire time
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A must read if you are into this subject!
Captivating!
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What did you love best about The Reluctant Psychic?
Holding my interest and to some degree my beliefWhat other book might you compare The Reluctant Psychic to and why?
Any psychic biography. This was not life altering but still enjoyable.Any additional comments?
I did look forward to 'getting back' to this book after setting it aside for a while. I was a off put by the victim mentality but feel I have no right to judgeWorth the credit
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Just what I was looking for!
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