
The Upside of Being Down
How Mental Health Struggles Led to My Greatest Successes in Work and Life
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Jen Gotch
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Jen Gotch
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A New York Times best seller
An entertaining, humorous, and inspirational memoir by the founder and chief creative officer of the multimillion-dollar lifestyle brand ban.do, who "has become a hero among women (and likely some men too) who struggle with mental health" (Forbes).
After graduating from college, Jen Gotch was living with her parents, heartbroken and lost, when she became convinced that her skin had turned green. Hallucinating that she looked like Shrek was terrifying, but it led to her first diagnosis and the start of a journey towards self-awareness, acceptance, success, and ultimately, joy.
With humor and candor, Gotch shares the empowering story of her unlikely path to becoming the creator and CCO of a multimillion-dollar brand. From her childhood in Florida where her early struggles with bipolar disorder, generalized anxiety, and ADD were misdiagnosed, to her winding career path as a waitress, photographer, food stylist, and finally, accidental entrepreneur, she illuminates how embracing her flaws and understanding the influence of mental illness on her creativity actually led to her greatest successes in business and life.
Hilarious, hyper-relatable, and filled with fascinating insights and hard-won wisdom on everything from why it’s okay to cry at work to the myth of busyness and perfection to the emotional rating system she uses every day, Gotch’s inspirational memoir dares listeners to live each day with hope, optimism, kindness, and humor.
©2020 Jen Gotch (P)2020 Simon & Schuster AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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Excellent book!
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Real. Raw. Valuable. & Life Changing.
Great job, Jen. Thanks for affecting so many people positively with your endless optimism.
Better than great, and less than perfect. 💗
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Good story and mental health info
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Great Book
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Upside Right
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Loved it.
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A mirror
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THIS IS A MUST READ!!!
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This book I can tell will help me in different ways however I need them in the future. I finished this book all the way through last week and I’m already thinking of listening to it again to get more nuggets of wisdom from Jen, who makes mental health a little bit more fun to navigate!
Thanks for putting this out there Jen, thanks for putting yourself out there to help others on their journeys.
This book is a bright light in the mental health arena. And as I’m typing this I’m realizing that’s why it’s called “The UPSIDE of being down” soooooooo yeah makes sense. Truly this book is about The Upside of Being Down.
Love!
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This book was so relatable!
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