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Rick R. Reed
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Randy Kay has the perfect life with his beautiful wife and adorable son. But Randy's living a lie, untrue to himself and everyone who knows him. He's gay.
Marriage and fatherhood, which he thought could change him, have failed. He doubts if anyone can love him for who he really is--especially himself.
With his wife's blessing, he sets out to explore the gay world he's hidden from all his life.
John Walsh, a paramedic with the Chicago Fire Department, is comfortable in his own skin as a gay man, yet he can never find someone who shares his desire to create a real relationship, a true family.
When Randy and John first spy each other in Chicago's Boystown, all kinds of alarms go off--some of joy, others of deep-seated fear.
Randy and John must surmount multiple hurdles on the journey to a lasting, meaningful love. Will they succeed or will their chance at love go up in flames, destroyed by missed connections and a lack of self-acceptance?
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WOW! What a Story!
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a great hard story
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Rick Reed, the author, provides realistic characters struggling through revelations and acceptance, fear, doubt, confusion, and more. The dialogue is authentic and keeps the story moving forward. This is a moving book that will have the listener in tears and connect with John, Randy, and Violet in ways that are surprising. Reed’s writing style leaves the listener wondering how it is possible for hate to survive so strongly in some and not exist in others. The struggles Randy faces is barely discussed but are very real. Reed’s writing is clear and moving, bringing to light the effects of such hatred and confusion. Reed’s writing is clear and with vivid details.
The narrator, David Allen Vargo is perfect for this story. His ability to speak clearly, and project the fear, doubt, confusion and other emotions faced by each character is very well done. While the author’s writing is moving, it is clearly Vargo’s performance that pushes the listener into hearing and experiencing the fear, self-doubt, hatred of one’s self and others, confusion and longing. Each character is given a unique voice to reflect their personality and pain. Vargo projects emotions vividly and accurately.
This is a well-done romance and self-discovery book of love between same-sex partners and their struggles. This is a book that addresses suicide, LGBTQ relationships, and hatred and proves how hard life can be when we get in our own way. The story is told from a variety of views – each chapter identifies whose perspective it is from.
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Poignant and Moving
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Emotional Story
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Narrator David Allen Vargo does a fabulous job. The background sounds got to be a bit much though I don't mind some.
a story of self acceptance and exploration
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As always David Allen Vargo did a wonderful job. He brought all the characters to life, and that's with this book asking for a wide range from him. His delivery of the main characters plight had me actually tearing up while listening. Well done, David! I listened to the entire book in one day, and now I wish I had stretched out the experience a bit.
Good story, Great Performance!
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Entertaining and realistic!
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Great book
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Not what I was expecting
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Realistic, emotional and informative
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