
Autopsy (of an Ex-Teen Heartthrob)
(Poems of Rage, Love, Sex, and Sadness)
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Avan Jogia
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Avan Jogia
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Writer, director, and actor Avan Jogia delivers a bright and acidic poetry collection on fame, rage, love, and sadness. A biting postmortem of the modern age, for fans of Lana Del Rey and Atticus.
Avan Jogia grew up as a teen idol. He stumbled into the spotlight during the birth of the internet, the early days of Instagram and Twitter, before everyone online was a star. He spent his time in that spotlight writing, observing the cult of celebrity, the hilarity, the absurdity, and sometimes sinister side of being idolized before you’ve even had the chance to decide for yourself who you are.
Now, in his most revealing and honest work to date, he has assembled a book of poems as an act of self-dissection. Part boozy lovesick rage and part personal reflection on the nature of fame, Autopsy (of an Ex-Teen Heartthrob) is a sharp, tantalizing collection of poems examining Avan’s relationship with ego, idolatry, love as an act of worship, rage as an act of prayer, and sadness as confession.
Through vivid imagery (and sometimes startling honesty) Avan cuts himself open and observes the false gods he has worshipped, the ways he has sinned, and exhumes a version of himself that looks like someone we all know: a person searching for the means to cure pain, mend the wounds of insecurity, and satiate cravings for love.
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- Rick Fallin
- 03-06-25
Avan bleeds for truth
I really loved this audiobook. Hearing Avan read it himself contributed to the inflection I didn’t always hear while reading the text myself. These poems are honest, dark, funny, a mix of all of the above. You can tell he is a true artist, a real poet. I can’t say anything except that both this collection and I Would Leave me if I Could are my favorite collections from well-known celebrities that don’t feel like a money grab. It is authentic and even without his voice reading, it sounds like he is bleeding himself into the words. I thoroughly enjoyed this and finished the collection in one sitting, which is difficult for me to do with audiobooks. 5 stars.
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- Bryce Tundo
- 03-22-25
absolutely love
I would absolutely recommend this book to everyone . I plan on listening to it again very soon
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- Jessica Elizabeth
- 02-16-25
Profound
It’s odd to say I liked it because it talks so much about sadness. I felt like a fly on the wall listening in to his life. Also, hilarious I laughed out loud several times. The imagery in his poetry is rough and vibrant. Avan’s usage of words and emotions are so engaging I listened to the book almost straight through. Probably one of the best books I’ve listened to in a while.
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- Drummond Culture
- 02-14-25
The Ugly Side of Hollywood Revealed Again
Avan definitely has a way with his words. You can tell he has a deeper way of seeing the world than most. So many of the poems he wrote hit home for me as well as painted a picture of his experiences as a child actor who grew up in the industry. He shared his honest thoughts and experiences without shying away from a lot of the things people like to hide in Hollywood. He shared his pains and his love with us in a beautiful degree of words. It was painful to hear of some of his experiences and how so many of the connections he made in life fell short because people couldn’t see past his celebrity label. He made me want to reach out to him and invite him into my peace that I have found in life and allow him to just exist away from all the things that weight him down in life.
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- Anonymous User
- 03-03-25
Nostalgic without ever having been
A teenage heartthrob. These poems hit certain nerves from my youth that were pleasant to revisit and even more pleasant to move on from again.
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- Juan C Vides
- 03-08-25
An amazing listen and read!
Autopsy of an ex teen heartthrob is funny, witty, sentimental, blunt, and so so real. I really enjoyed hearing Avan read the poems and found that it made the reading experience so much better. I really recommend hearing it in his voice. Incredible prose!
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- Aine
- 03-28-25
I'm really bad with titles
English isn't my first language so this review isn't going to be Shakespearean-like and for that I apologize. Truthfully, I didn't know what to expect when I first started listening to this book. I have to say I was taken aback by how honest and raw the poems are. Sure, it's called "autopsy", but I wasn't expecting this level of self awareness and willingness to lay oneself bare before the world. The poems, although extremely personal, resonated with me and some of them have been serious food for thought. Thank you Avan Jogia.
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- Andi
- 03-13-25
It was okay
It had it's moments and some really good lines like "Fame is the only way to get people to read your book." and "I'm not a human being, I just play one on TV." But, then there were parts for instance: there were two poems one called "Fame" and the other called "Sex". It seems like the way they were written was like a HS assignment. You know in English class they are trying to get you to write by free associating.
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