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Beside Myself is the disturbing and exhilarating story of a family across four generations.
At its heart is one woman’s search for her twin brother. When Anton goes missing and the only clue is a postcard sent from Istanbul, Alissa leaves her life in Berlin to find him. Without her twin, the sharer of her memories and the mirror of her own self, Ali is lost.
In a city steeped in political and social changes, where you can buy gender-changing drugs on the street, Ali’s search - for her missing brother, for her identity - will take her on a journey for connection and belonging.
Beside Myself is a brilliant literary debut about belonging, about family and love, and about the enigmatic nature of identity.
©2017 by Suhrkamp Verlag Berlin. All rights reserved by and controlled through Suhrkamp Verlag Berlin. Translation © 2019 by Imogen Taylor. Originally published as Ausser sich in 2017 by Suhrkamp Verlag Berlin. First published in English in 2019 by the Text Publishing Company (P)2020 by Blackstone PublishingListeners also enjoyed...
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