
Broken Open
What Painkillers Taught Me About Life and Recovery
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William Cope Moyers
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William Cope Moyers was a model of sober success. As his inspiring story of overcoming addiction was on its way to becoming a New York Times bestseller, everyone thought he had finally achieved the redemption promised by recovery—including him. But the perfect story that helped Moyers become a famous face of the recovery movement was already unraveling, revealing a chasm between his public persona and conflicted inner life. This is Moyers's story of life beyond the bright moments of early sobriety and what happened when a new crisis invaded what once seemed like a secure recovery.
William didn't know something was missing until it happened. He'd been in recovery for alcohol and drugs for years. He was a recovery activist and a spokesperson for the gold standard of treatment and recovery organizations. He was a model leader and follower of Twelve Step programs. But, still, he slipped. Privately, he was addicted to painkillers while publicly saying he was in recovery from alcohol and drug use. How did it go so wrong? With brutal honesty and introspection, William shares what happened after sobriety—after he'd published his memoir. His life of sobriety wasn't perfect, but he thought his recovery was strong. Unfortunately, the opioid epidemic was stronger. In Broken Open, William takes a courageous look at the years he struggled to reclaim his recovery.
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