
Depression: I Don't Understand
One Man's Explanation of How Depression and Anxiety Are Tearing His Life Apart - and What He's Trying to Do to Stop It
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Narrated by:
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Adam Breazeale
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By:
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Charlie Garrick
About this listen
This book will give you a humbling and emotive insight into one man's struggle with depression, and will share with you how he is trying to get his life back on track.
Charlie Garrick has been depressed for 17 years. He just hadn't realized, until recently.
In Charlie's short memoir, he shares his incredibly emotive, often humorous, and at all times desperately honest account of what it's like to live with depression, in a world where his family and friends struggle to understand him.
His powerful story gives listeners a new perspective on depression, that of someone who is currently suffering from the chronic illness and is not sure where his journey will take him next.
We hope that Charlie's story will help others find solace in their lives and will encourage you to realize that it's ok not to understand and it's ok to share your thoughts and emotions.
This book is for everyone, regardless of whether your have suffered with depression, have lived with someone who has depression, or simply want to learn more about the illness and how it affects the lives of ordinary people.
Here is a breakdown of the topics that this book explores:
- When did it start?
- What is living with depression like?
- Why can't I understand depression?
- Will this last forever?
- Closing remarks
- And much more!
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