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“I’m not going to try it,” I said.
“You’ll like it,” she argued.
“I know I’ll like it,” I said. “That’s why I’m not going to try it.”
“Try it just this once and I’ll never ask you to do it again.”
That was a deal. I slipped back into the driver’s seat while Pam corn-rowed two neat lines of the silky white powder on the back of a plastic cassette tape cover.
Fifteen hundred dollars every month, an abusive boyfriend, a molested child, a lost family, hotels for houses, a ruined leg, a gun to my head, a knife to my butt, and a jail cell all my own. Black eyes, bruised days, broken hours. Looking back, it seems strange what I gave up to get my roommate off my back.
In her debut memoir, Andrade tells of her years with cocaine and crystal methamphetamine using, then selling, until all she had left of the life she wanted was a chalk outline and a pack of cigarettes.
This is the story of her use and recovery, of the people who frustrated and inspired her, of the decision to leave the drug world. It is the story of her slow, often unsteady walk home.
©2019 Laura Andrade and Jean Knight Pace (P)2020 Laura Andrade and Jean Knight PaceListeners also enjoyed...
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By all appearances, Fieldy had the life. But he was on the dark path of excess, alienating friends, families, and loved ones, nearly destroying himself and the band. It took an unexpected tragedy to straighten him out: the death of his father, a born-again Christian, to a mysterious illness. Following his father's dying wish, Fieldy found God. Filled with the spirit of his new faith, Fieldy quit drugs and drinking cold turkey, and found the best part of himself.
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Good story, poor Narrator!
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By: Fieldy
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The Undocumented Americans
- By: Karla Cornejo Villavicencio
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Writer Karla Cornejo Villavicencio was on DACA when she decided to write about being undocumented for the first time using her own name. It was right after the election of 2016, the day she realized the story she'd tried to steer clear of was the only one she wanted to tell. So she wrote her immigration lawyer's phone number on her hand in Sharpie and embarked on a trip across the country to tell the stories of her fellow undocumented immigrants—and to find the hidden key to her own.
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Raw, heartbreaking - we can do better by others
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Drinking and Tweeting
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Fans have been waiting for Brandi’s scoop on one of the biggest divorces of the decade since her husband of eight years abandoned her and their two sons to marry country singer LeAnn Rimes. Not only does Brandi spill the beans about her side of the split, but the lovable housewife also shares the incredible wild ride that took her from a life in the ghetto to Hollywood’s most elite circles.
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Who edited this?
- By Jessica on 11-02-20
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- By: Brian "Head" Welch
- Narrated by: Ray Porter
- Length: 6 hrs and 22 mins
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In February 2005, more than 10,000 people in Bakersfield, California, watched as Brian “Head” Welch—the former lead guitarist of the controversial rock band Korn—was saved by Jesus Christ. The event set off a media frenzy as observers from around the world sought to understand what led this rock star out of the darkness and into the light.
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Another Way
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Sober Stick Figure
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Sober Stick Figure is a memoir from stand-up comedian Amber Tozer, chronicling her life as an alcoholic - starting with her first drink at the age of seven - and her eventual recovery. Amber writes about the crazy and harsh truths of being raised by alcoholics, becoming one herself, stagnating in denial for years, and finally getting sober.
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Author's voice unbearable
- By Kylee on 12-09-16
By: Amber Tozer
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At a high point in his career, Artie Lange performed a sold-out show in Carnegie Hall-and he did it with a pocketful of heroin. In the midst of a deep, self-destructive depression, addicted to heroin, cocaine, and prescription drugs, he lashed out at everyone around him-from his cohosts on The Howard Stern Show to celebrity guests and even his longtime friends. Then came his legendary meltdown on-air, with 6 million people listening, after which Lange pulled himself together enough to go to a buddy's bachelor party in Amsterdam.
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[Narrator Fail] Comic Genius+Depression+Drugs=Mess
- By Hilary on 11-07-13
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Home Before Daylight
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Steve Parish was never one to walk the straight-and-narrow, even during his childhood growing up in Flushing Meadow, Queens. Busted as a teenager for selling acid in the summer of 1968, Parish landed in Riker's Island. The experience changed him, and after getting out, he did his best to stay out of trouble, securing a job moving music equipment at the New York State Pavilion. The first show he worked was a Grateful Dead concert in July of 1969, and Parish was captivated by the music. A life seemingly headed nowhere had suddenly found its calling.
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Narrator-Blaa
- By MORGAN NOTEL on 10-06-19
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In an idyllic Los Angeles neighborhood, where generations enjoy deep roots in old homes, the O’Rourke family fits right in. Miriam and Craig are both artists and their four children carry on the legacy. When their teenage son, Nick, is diagnosed with schizophrenia, a tumultuous decade ensues in which the family careens off the conventional course. Like the 10 Biblical plagues, they are hit by one catastrophe after another: violence, evictions, arrests, a suicide attempt, a near-drowning - even cancer and a brain tumor - play against the backdrop of a wild teenage bacchanal.
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So Beautifully Written
- By Michael on 08-01-22
By: Miriam Feldman
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Pain Killer
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Brantt Myhres wasn't around for the birth of his daughter. Myhres had played for seven different NHL teams, and had made millions. But he'd been suspended four times, all for drug use, and he had partied his way out of the league. This is his story, in his own words, of how he fought his way out of minor hockey into the big league, but never left behind the ghosts of a bleak and troubled childhood.
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I love hockey.
- By Brew2go on 06-14-21
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Bare Bones
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Growing up poor in Mountain Pine, Arkansas, with a young, addicted mom, Bobby Estell fell in love with country music. Abandoned by his father at the age of five, Bobby saw the radio as his way out - a dream that came true in college when he went on air at the Henderson State University campus station broadcasting as Bobby Bones while simultaneously starting The Bobby Bones Show at 105.9 KLAZ.
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A look inside the narcissist life of Bobby Bones.
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Digging Up Mother
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Doug Stanhope is one of the most critically acclaimed and stridently unrepentant comedians of his generation. What will surprise some is that he owes so much of his dark and sometimes uncomfortably honest sense of humor to his mother, Bonnie.
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Not my thing.
- By J. Harral on 01-27-18
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Hey Mom
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Louie Anderson has been channeling his beloved mom in his iconic stand-up comedy for decades - but she passed away before getting to see him reach new heights with his breakout role. Hey Mom is Louie's way of catching Ora Zella Anderson up on everything that has been going on in his life, including his continued struggles with food and family, but also how so much has changed for the better. He also has plenty of laugh-out-loud stories about his incredibly resilient mother and his 10 siblings, as well as observations on the absurdities of life.
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I love Louie even more now
- By Candace on 05-02-18
By: Louie Anderson
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- christina b.
- 03-21-21
a unique journey
The beginning of the book got me hooked but it started to lose steam about half way through. I do appreciate her telling her story and admire how she turned her life around. That in itself is 5 stars.
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- F. Jelley
- 06-01-22
A True Overcomer
This was a great read about a woman who, very much on her own, battled her individual demons to win her daughter back and regain her life. Laura is a strong and lasting lesson to all who have battled addiction that they can find a way through the haze of drugs and alcohol and actually come back stronger than before. In her case, it was her love for her daughter that was the motivating factor to begin the arduous process of shedding her long-held addictions, re-establishing herself as a caring mother, and creating a new life for herself. With her addictions behind her, she began to have a remarkable passion for pure living, a genuine love for others, and real life from the Giver of Life.
This is a book I can heartily recommend--especially to those who enjoy seeing someone with grit and determination triumphing over their own self-inflicted difficulties and come out stronger, wiser, and better equipped for life!
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- Quincy Lane
- 06-09-22
A True Story Of Redemption
There are to many good things I have to say about this book. I know this Woman Personally & before this book was written; & to see how she is now makes her book come to life.
This book has the ability to relate to many people in many ways. Whatever your Situation, I’m positive you can find some principle to relate to.
Read, Study & Use this Book to help you Overcome Challenges. It is beyond a great book.
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- Amazon Customer
- 05-06-21
Don’t give up hope
This is an amazing story of redemption. I loved it and applaud Laura for her bravery in sharing her story.
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- Jacob Iglinski
- 10-20-20
Inspiring!
I was engaged throughout the entire thing. The authors experiences with hardship and transformation through Christ were very moving. The beginning chapters were a bit heavy and very real, but gave me a new perspective on life. The narrator has a great voice for this story!
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- Anonymous User
- 05-28-20
Inspiring!
I loved this memoir. Often I feel trapped by life circumstances and this story brought me hope that anyone can change and become more! Thank you Laura for sharing your story and for it’s beautiful message of hope!
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- Marsh
- 05-04-20
Wonderful story of hope and redemption
Jean and Laura masterfully write a real story of how one person through Christ can overcome the most difficult challenges and find joy. I couldn’t put it down. Thank you both!
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- Laura
- 03-04-23
An Interesting Memoir
The beginning of this story grabbed my attention. I admired the courage and strength that it took for Laura Andrade to tell her life's story. The story had its ugly side as Laura was addicted to several substances, some legal and some not. Her addictions drew her into a world of abuse and terror. The tale had its bad side, as Laura detailed a lot of the bad decisions that she made throughout her life and the ramifications of those decisions. The book had its good side as well as Laura related her road to recovery. Belinda Lams' narration was fine, and she kept my attention with her performance. I was given a free copy of the audiobook, and I have voluntarily posted this review.
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- Beach Mermaid
- 03-22-24
Book was hard to finish
About 95% of my audible listening collection is compiled of memoirs, it’s my favorite genre. This book however fell short of my liking due to multiple factors. I had a very hard time making myself finish this book, it just didn’t have a storyline that was a page turner for me. It was very repetitive and seemed to drag on and on. I also didn’t enjoy the performance of the narrator.
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- Carol Nain
- 08-06-20
Four Seconds
I think the book was well written but a tad long in the tooth towards the end
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