
"Getting Back to Me"
From Girl to Boy to Woman in Just Fifty Years
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Scottie Jeanette Madden
About this listen
This is the real time account of the coming out of a respected adventure survival filmmaker, taken from her journal entries as she leaves behind fear and white male privilege to embrace truth, grace and womanhood. Her gut-wrenching journey of love, acceptance and honesty becomes the ultimate survival show. Scottie didn't make it easy on herself. Like many late-stage trans women, Scottie had made one helluva guy; succeeding as a husband of 25 years, the only son, the big brother to three sisters and the legendary adventurer uncle to their children. Everything in her life screamed alpha male. No one could guess that Scottie, a top survival showrunner for the Discovery and History Channels, known for leading über-male productions in the world's most dangerous locations, was losing a lifelong battle for her soul. It takes faith and true love in and from her wife, for Scottie to shake off 50 years of expectations from her family, society and herself. But first, she must face down her own denial to dismantle the walls of a self-imposed prison. Scottie's articulate and insightful perspective shines new light on the transgender experience, but it's her deeply personal confession told with unflinching clarity, inspiring courage, and engaging humor, that makes her story a must listen for any human, of any persuasion. Hers is a love story that will inspire and affirm everyone.
©2015 Scottie Jeanette Christine Madden (P)2016 Scottie Jeanette Christine MaddenListeners also enjoyed...
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- Anonymous User
- 03-29-19
Mind blowing story of love for life and love
Narrated by Scoottie Jeeanette herself brings this life affirming story directly into your heart.
Scottie and her mylove Marcy shows the world how love both for each other and the their love story, can flourish through tough challenges.
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- Warren
- 02-13-17
A Book To Inspire Us All
What did you love best about "Getting Back to Me"?
I knew and loved Scottie for many years as Scott. I needed and wanted to understand the why and the how and reading her story removed the mystery and brought me back to the love I’ve always felt.
Who was your favorite character and why?
The author, herself, is THE character. I was intrigued by how well she articulated the journey from being totally in the closet to being totally out there.
What about Scottie Jeanette Madden’s performance did you like?
I loved the narration. Scottie would repeat herself, saying the same sentence several times, but each time she said it, it would be entirely different - with a different intonation and a different meaning. It would be excellent narration for any audiobook but especially since it is about Scottie herself. I can't imagine anyone but her being able to express the same meanings that she was able to convey.
Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?
I was moved by the faith that Scottie had in her friends, relatives, co-workers, and associates that they would be accepting of the new persona that was emerging. It was this faith that enabled her to make this transition as smoothly and completely in such a relatively short period of time.
Any additional comments?
Besides its smooth narrative flow, it’s also a “how to” manual on how to come out with grace and love and courage, and will be of great support to countless numbers of people who are struggling with the same issues. I am so grateful to Scottie for sharing her story so generously and hope it illumines for others, as it did for me, what it means to become yourself.
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