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Narrated by:
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Stephen Ira
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Kirsten Potter
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Rachel Jacobs
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David Bendena
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By:
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Zoe Whittall
About this listen
In this robust, elegantly plotted, and ultimately life-affirming novel, Zoe Whittall presents a dazzling portrait of the Millennial Generation - the 25-year-olds who grew up on anti-anxiety meds, text-messaging each other truncated emotional reactions, unsure of what's public and what's private.
Holding Still explores an unusual love triangle involving Billy, a former teen idol, now an anxiety-ridden agoraphobic; Josh, a shy transgendered paramedic who travels the city patching up damaged bodies; and Amy, a fashionable filmmaker coping with her first broken heart.
With this extraordinary novel, Whittall gives us startlingly real portraits of three unforgettable characters and proves herself to be one of our most talented writers.
©2009 Zoe Whittall (P)2020 Dreamscape Media, LLCListeners also enjoyed...
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