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All audiobooks authored by inmates, on inmates.
Cjay is a transgender woman of color, housed in San Quentin, the San Francisco Bay Area’s internationally known California state prison. Cjay has been to nearly as many prisons as she has fingers on her hands, yet nothing in her upbringing predestined her for crime. Addiction does that to people - turns the good bad.
Cjay loved and hated drugs. Drugs allowed her mind to rest, but her mind could not rest without them. Her mind, in fact, was spinning with pain, guilt, and rejection. Being transgender, especially in the 1980s and 1990s, was the life of pariah. Fortunately for Cjay, she had her fellow trans-sisters.
Holler at Your Girl is a one-of-a-kind account of a presently incarcerated transgender woman who knew from an early age her identity yet had to suffer immense trials before finding her soul.
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- Bryan M Wright
- 11-12-18
Shocking!
I've read a lot of true crime books but, until this crime series, none written by the criminals while still incarcerated.
Cjay's life couldn't be more different than my own. She's a transgender who was born male but felt at a young age that she was a girl. The book chronicles her descent into crime and addiction eventually leading to her incarceration in several prisons including San Quentin where she is now. She tells a shocking story about her lifestyle and the many horrors she endured. In the end she takes responsibility for her actions and still has hope because of her belief that God loves her.
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- DANIEL E FULLER
- 12-08-18
Astounding story...
Holler At Your Girl is a brief but heavy piece of standalone storytelling about the tragically unavoidable trials faced by an individual who chooses to stay true to their inner identity regardless of whether society appreciates them or not. This often raw account of CJay's experiences as a misunderstood but loving individual has the power to transform one's perceptions of class race and orientation. CJay's story, as told in her own words, leaves very little ambiguous as she conveys the bluntness of her experiences of home life, street life, drug life and jail life. Holler leaves behind a strong impression of how drugs and despair can test even the most proud and unapologetic in character. Most importantly Holler At Your Girl illustrates how life can change instantly depending on whether we are grateful or ungrateful for our given circumstances.
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