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Dawn Jiles
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Will the friendship between the "it" girls in school stand the test of time, or will lies, betrayal, heartache, and secrets tear them apart?
Monique, Bria, and Samariah are best friends from Milwaukee, going through some of everything together. Finishing up their senior year, they are the "it" girls in school, the ones other girls want to be like.
Samariah, however, doesn't want to share her shine with anyone. She'll do anything to get what she wants, even if that means sabotaging her best friends' relationships.
Bria speaks her mind and is as real as they come. She has been with David since freshman year of high school, and they are madly in love. Will that change when a baby is introduced into the picture?
Monique is too naive. She tries to see the best in everybody. She finally gets the man of her dreams, only to discover he has been harboring a secret. Will the love she has for him keep them together?
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If I Can’t Hav You
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