
If I Disappear
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Kristen Sieh
“This new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.” (Rolling Stone)
“An eerie, twisted thriller sure to shake up the most seasoned true crime die-hard." (Harper's Bazaar)
A Most Anticipated Book of 2021 by Rolling Stone • CNN • E! Online • Buzzfeed • New York Post • PopSugar • Woman's Day • Crime Reads • Hello Giggles
When her favorite true-crime podcast host goes missing, an adrift young woman sets out to investigate and plunges headfirst into the wild backcountry of Northern California and her own dangerous obsession.
Sera loves true-crime podcasts. They give her a sense of control in a world where women just like her disappear daily. She's sure they are preparing her for something. So when Rachel, her favorite podcast host, goes missing, Sera knows it's time to act. Rachel has always taught her to trust her instincts.
Sera follows the clues hidden in the episodes to an isolated ranch outside Rachel's small hometown to begin her search. She's convinced her investigation will make Rachel so proud. But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel. Because Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won't be the last....
Rachel did try to warn her.
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Critic reviews
"This author is a breath of fresh air in an oversaturated, congested world of thrillers. Watch out, Gillian Flynn - mystery thrillers have a new ingenue and her name is Eliza Jane Brazier.” (Pittsburgh Post-Gazette)
“This twisted and riveting thriller is one that will keep you up late at night with suspense.” (CNN)
“A skillful dissection of true-crime podcast culture and those obsessed with it, this new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.... If I Disappear throws into sharp relief how desensitized we can become when we treat real life like a game.” (Rolling Stone)
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I had a hard time getting through the first half- it’s a slow build but towards the end I couldn’t stop listening until I knew what happened.
The twists at the end left my jaw dropped.
Slow Build but Good
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Interesting
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If I Disappear
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Really suspenseful and intense. You get to know the main character really well.
Such a good story
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A Good Hard Look at how we consume true crime
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I'm still going to listen, hoping she gets more sign posts right as it goes, but so far I'm disappointed.
Inaccurate locations
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good story
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Then, the final act happens and everything careens off the road so quickly, it’s jarring and throws the entire story off. What small mysteries the author laid throughout the story do come together in the end, but there are too many threads left hanging, and the resolution of the story is so disappointing, you’ll wonder why you kept up with it.
The pay off is so unsatisfactory, you’ll want to trade this book in and look for something to scratch that itch you really want. And for a story with such a steady and thought out narrative, it’s unfortunate the author didn’t give the reader enough credit to really stick the landing. It doesn’t leave us wanting more, it leaves us wondering if we really wanted the amount we got in the first place.
Compelling and smart…until it isn’t
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I dont even know what I just read
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Loved it
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