
If There's a Heaven Above
A Roman à Clef
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Seth Kindred
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Andrew Demcak
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If There's a Heaven Above takes the listener on a tour of the Southern California demi-monde Goth scene of the mid-1980s, as seen through the eyes of club-kid, Matt. The novel combines innocence with experience, sex and drugs, Love and Rockets, with just the right touch of poetry. It is a thrilling ride along the freeways and turntables of that era: when AIDS was new, Reagan was King, and hope was a wounded kitten, cared for by the creatures of the night. The novel unfurls like an alternate-universe John Hughes movie. The story of three young friends navigating love, sex, drugs, and heartbreak in the LA Goth scene is brilliantly rendered. You'll listen to it in one sitting.
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