
I'll Look So Hot in a Coffin
And Other Thoughts I Used to Have About My Body
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Carla Sosenko
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A “raw, vulnerable, and utterly hilarious” (Harper’s Bazaar) memoir about one woman’s experience living with a deformity, and her quest to find freedom and joy in her body
“Sosenko’s experience with body shame and judgment, from herself and others, is universal. She shows us her journey from self-hatred to joy so that we may follow her lead.”—Jo Piazza, bestselling author of The Sicilian Inheritance, podcast creator, and award-winning journalist
Carla Sosenko was born with Klippel-Trenaunay syndrome, a rare vascular disorder that resulted in legs of different sizes, a mass of flesh on her back, a hunched posture, and other idiosyncrasies big and small. She spent years trying to hide under layers of clothing, and then experimented with the opposite: wearing tiny dresses and short shorts, daring people to stare so she could make them regret it. No matter what she did, she was worried that she didn’t measure up.
In this candid and funny memoir, Sosenko shares what existing in an unconventional body has meant for her self-image, mental health, relationships, and ambitions. She writes of having liposuction when she was eight years old, and an adulthood spent obsessively gaming Weight Watchers points. She wrestles with the rise of Ozempic after working hard to reject diet culture. She tries to parse whether it is in spite of or because of her physical differences that she is a social butterfly who chose a high-profile career in media. Most of all, Sosenko explores the ways in which she’s felt alone and without community: not disabled but different; the recipient of pretty privilege but also fatphobia; too much, but still never enough. We follow along as she learns to claim her body—and mind and spirit and life—for exactly what they are: her own.
A clarion call for anyone who has ever felt like an outsider or believed they should take up less space, I'll Look So Hot in a Coffin offers hope, recognition, and a new way to see ourselves—by celebrating what sets us apart.
©2025 Carla Sosenko (P)2025 Random House AudioCritic reviews
“Carla Sosenko is raw, vulnerable, and utterly hilarious in I’ll Look So Hot in a Coffin . . . Sosenko isn’t afraid to completely bare herself in this candid and celebratory memoir.”—Harper’s Bazzar “Most Highly-Anticipated Books of 2025”
“Carla Sosenko’s book is, quite simply, wonderful. She deftly deals with the big topics—sexism, disability, dating, love, family—with a light touch, deep insight, and irreverent humor. I plan to recommend it to all my friends.”—New York Times bestselling author and journalist A.J. Jacobs
“Carla Sosenko’s wickedly funny memoir gave me the ultimate gift: It made me feel seen. The writer was born with a rare deformity, but her experience with body shame and judgment, from herself and others, is universal. Sosenko shows us her journey from self-hatred to joy so that we may follow her lead.”—Jo Piazza, bestselling author of The Sicilian Inheritance, podcast creator, and award-winning journalist
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