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Isaac Fellman
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Notes from a Regicide is a heartbreaking story of trans self-discovery with a rich relatability and a science-fictional twist from award-winning author Isaac Fellman.
When your parents die, you find out who they really were.
Griffon Keming’s second parents saved him from his abusive family. They taught him how to be trans, paid for his transition, and tried to love him as best they could. But Griffon’s new parents had troubles of their own—both were deeply scarred by the lives they lived before Griffon, the struggles they faced to become themselves, and the failed revolution that drove them from their homeland. When they died, they left an unfillable hole in his heart.
Griffon’s best clue to his parents’ lives is in his father’s journal, written from a jail cell while he awaited execution. Stained with blood, grief, and tears, these pages struggle to contain the love story of two artists on fire. With the journal in hand, Griffon hopes to pin down his relationship to these wonderful and strange people for whom time always seemed to be running out.
In Notes from a Regicide, a trans family saga set in a far-off, familiar future, Isaac Fellman goes beyond the concept of found family to examine how deeply we can be healed and hurt by those we choose to love.
A Macmillan Audio production from Tor Books.
©2025 Isaac Fellman (P)2025 Macmillan AudioCritic reviews
“A delicate, ardent portrait of two aging trans revolutionaries and the son they never expected.”—Jenn Shapland, National Book Award finalist
“A glittering, empathetic story about the pains and pleasures of loving eccentrics....Marvellous, and heart-breakingly unsentimental.”—Jennifer Giesbrecht, author of The Monster of Elendhaven
“Notes from a Regicide is a dazzling meditation on art and desire....it is also quite simply the best kind of book there is—dangerous because it is beautiful, and because it is true.”—Jedediah Berry, author of The Manual of Detection and The Naming Song
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